u nOtice his every LittLe acTionS,u thinK abouT him,u sEem to be inTereSted in wadeva he iS intereSted in,u always "behaVe" infrOnt of him,u wanT to call/sms him bUt on the othEr hand..u wanT him to call/sms u firsT cuz u dunwan hiM to noE tad u like him.(but u DO WANT him to nOe and u wanT to noE EVEN MORE if he feels the saMe waY abouT u or not) and the wOrst thing is u feeL so cOnfuSed.u duno wad to dO..u feeL jeaLous when he's toKing to Some girL..u wOnder hu he msges or toKs to on his hp..u hOpe he LikeS u but then again..u're afraid tad he'll Like u cUz its SO NOT RIGHT...sick rite.this kind of crush?argHHh..

hey heys..haha..i copied n pasted that from shir's blog..this girl..i really give two thumbs up..haha..she voiced out what i really feel..haha..well..in case u dont know that, it's the meaning of CRUSH..haah..

anyways.i just wanna tell u all out there, i dont like anyone now!!! really!! i dont!! the above is how i FELT..which means, it's the past.yeps..so stop trying to guess who's the lucky guy..haha..there's no one..really..=)



Heys..this is specially for Cliquers..=)

Just wanna say a big thank you to u girls..

Ever since I stepped into bowen, a new chapter of my life started..i felt super lost in a new environment..but thank God I found u girls..

I’ve been through so much in these two years..and u have been with me through them..i think besides God, u all are the only ones who really know what I went through..

We’ve been through thick n thin..laughter..n tears..literally..haha..yet none of us ever looked down on one another..but have been giving support..really thank yall for that..

I did super badly for my EOY exams last year..but u all didn’t look down on me..and instead motivated me to work hard in the new year..n I did it!!! Haha..

So happy 5 of us are going to the same class next year..at least the two still have each other in 3E5..=)

Girls, really wanna thank yall for being there for me..whether I needed u or not, u were there..i really enjoyed my life in bowen, because of u..

Haha..come to think of it, I don’t know how we started this clique, but well..who cares..as long as it’s still intact..haha..

As the new year approaches, really pray that we’ll still be one..not so worried for the 5 of us going e2..it’s the two of them..don’t want them to think they don’t belong here any longer since they different class.. no one is gonna make the Cliquers split, yeas? Agree? Haha..i know u do..so..continue to be close close friends yahs. And we’ll rock everyone’s world together!!!! Turn people’s world upside down!! We’ve been doing that..haha..so continue!!!!! Really looking forward to meeting u girls when school reopens..and, there’s nothing u cant share with the clique about..=) cai, we know about it..and we will support u till the end..continue to look to God for strength..i’m keeping u in my prayers..
~sorry..didn’t go for the gathering..i had smth on that day.

Here’s a short prayer for yall..:

Lord Jesus right now I just wanna uphold shi wei, Joanna, cai ling, mishal, wee nee, li hui and even myself into Your Hands..i pray that u grant each and every one of us strength as the new year approaches Lord..i know You’re moving in my clique..i see lives being touched..i just pray u use me Lord to even share with them..even in this short 4 days left, Lord u prepare their hearts Lord, to receive the good news..cos I really don’t wanna see my friends burnt in hell Lord..bond us together closely like before Lord..thank You Lord..and bless each n every one of us..in Jesus’ Name I pray, AMEN!!!

Lastly, just wanna tell u, I LOVE U SOOOOOOO MUCH!!!!! =) gonna give yall a big hug when I see u on Monday!!! Haha..take lotsa care!!



just gonna blog a short one..

had super lots of fun yesterday..jean n i shared some intimate secrets..haha..played truth or dare with some guys..my secret almost leaked out, but well, it's still safe..

i'm feeling alot better now, thanks to encouragements of friends around me..i love u all..

now having blocked nose n sore throat..thank God i didnt lose my voice..haha..all thanks to the chocolates i've been eating..

well..think i know who he likes lahs.yahs..but..i'm not gonna bother about it..cos..i'll give him up when i have to..no point holding on..

he who is no fool gives what he cannot keep to gain what he cannot lose..jim elliot

haha..here's smth to make fun of yall..nothing is right in ur left brain, and nothing is left in ur right brain..=)

Lord..thanks for everything..i love You..and i'll rely on Your strength..=)



haix..........................
thats all i can say for today..i'm really sick of such stuff..i had to handle them more than once in school..now it's happening in church..i'm not blaming anyone or what.but..yahs.

why is it the people treat me like so pyschopath? like, i'm supposed to read everyone's mind to find out whats wrong? i'm a normal human can..why cant anyone understand me..i just need one such person..one such person to understand how i feel..know that i'm just a normal 14 year-old teenage girl..i face the same problems just as every other teenage girl does..pple always come to me after they make a mess out of things..for me to clean them up..i dont mind doing it..but explain to me why the mess was caused! how do u expect me to know whats happening just like that? and if everyone just expects me to clean up all the mess, who's gonna clean mine? i have my own personal problems too! sick of it..sick of crying over such stuff..really sick of it..

well..what to do..guess God has His reasons..He wont make me go through it for nothing..what to do..can only look to Him for strength..cos He's the ONLY one who understands how i feel..

Lord i REALLY need ur strength NOW..and ur wisdom..i want to handle things the way u want me to..just bless me with ur wisdom Lord..please...i'm really DESPERATE for it..and u promised that whatever i ask in ur name, u'll give..i know u dont break ur promises Lord..so..yahs..grant me wisdom n strength..cos i really cant carry on..i'm so tired..so so tired..thank you Lord..i love You no matter what happens..



so happy!!! no words can describe my feelings!!!

fri..went to my aunt's place to celebrate christmas..haha..cos i thought only going tm to watch movie..then wore t-shirt n shorts..ended up we all feeling too high, changed our minds n decided to go down orchard after dinner n presents opening session..haha..so ivana dressed me up with her clothes..haha..

orchard was super crowded..and everyone was just playing with the foam spray like nobody's business..really pity the people who have to clean up..
we ended up walking out of the mrt station, cut through the stage area, then walk back to the mrt station..and that took a super long time..

anyways.when we alighted the train, we shouted merry christmas..haha..then everybody stared at us..then we sat at the seats..waiting for luana..then we keep shouting merry christmas n wave to people..haha..(actually only ivana n i were waving)

then went to watch kung fu hustle..okies lahs.not that nice..just some parts were quite funny..

then went to ivana's house..slept at around 4..haha..

so happy kaes..all the presents i received..hahas..super cute..got one shirt, same as my niece..quite kiddy..but i like it..it's the one i wore to church for the christmas service..the the pressie edina gave, OMG! it's the princess diaries royal engagement planner!! *screams* i love it mans..sooo pink..i almost bought it..but didnt bear to spend the money on myself..haha..like, quite waste money lors..then she bought it..oh mans..simply love it.

just bathed..went for the christmas service..so great to see friends getting baptised..yeas.and it really is more blessed to give than to receive..u know, this year i more she de to spend money on my good friends..yahs.then got back so much more..and, it's not about getting back..it's just the joy in giving..it's like, my heart just melts when i see that people are happy..though the things i did were simple and plain, i really took a long time to make it..yahs..haha..and this year, i got so many presents..i was shocked myself..those people i didnt expect to give, just gave me..i mean, if it's a card, it's still understandable..they gave presents! yahs..and i just enjoyed opening all the presents n reading every single card..really touched..and the chocolates n sweets i received..just so sweet lors..no other words to describe..haha..cos i have a sweet tooth..especially towards chocolates..haha..

and it was really touching to see so many people giving their lives to Jesus..i was so happy..couldnt stop smiling as i prayed..haha..cos just have this passion in me to see people get saved..

well wells..christmas is over..so fast! but..God's love is the most important thing..it's not only on christmas that we're reminded of it..=) cos He doesnt just love us on Christmas day..He loves us EVERY SINGLE DAY!!! so to those who are reading but arent christians, whoever u are, i just wanna tell u again that JESUS LOVES YOU VERY MUCH..i know yall are sick n tired of me saying this, but i'll just keep repeating it..=) until one day u come to realisation of His unfailing love..

"For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have everlasting life." John 3.16

this verse is so familiar to all of us..even non-christians can memorise them backwards..but how many of u really think through what it means..really wanna see all my loved ones in Heaven when i die..so..yahs..i'm praying for all of u..and i'll never stop doing so.=) especially cliquers..i will never give up bringing yall to Christ..=) cos u're too precious to me. love yall cliquers..

hmms..guess i should go sleep..but before i do that, i just wanna say, i really dont know why i typed all that stuff down..just felt like sharing God's love..and guess God is using me to speak to u? =) haha..yahs..take care all u out there!!! rush ur holiday assignment!!!!! haha..love u.



i'm blogging a super short one..cos i got cut off from the internet..then i was typing halfway..not gonna type again..sick of it..

yahs..anyways..it's christmas eve!!! peeps..just wanna tell u that Christ was born on this day..because of YOU..yes, YOU..JESUS LOVES YOU!!!! =)

cliquers..sorry i cant go out with yall..i got smthg on..really sorry..but i really miss u guys..probably must wait till school reopen then can see yall..anyways.haha..jo n cai..where will 3E2 be huhs? i think i'll be super lost on the first day of sch..can we meet at the canteen or foyer first..haha..foyer moore dangerous..dont want danapal to catch us on the first day..canteen? confirm with me kaes..haha

ohh..n i found out one thing..he's not that kiam after all..dont tell u why..

cya!!! take lotsa care people!! love u lots!! =)



All that I am, all that i have
i lay them down before You O Lord
all my regrets, all my acclaims
the joy and the pain
i'm making them Yours

Lord i offer my life to You
everything i've been through
use it for Your glory
Lord i offer my days to You
lifting my praise to You
as a pleasing sacrifice
Lord i offer You my life

things in the past
things yet unseen
wishes and dreams that are yet to come true
all of my hopes
all of my plans
my heart and my hands are lifted to You
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

yeps..meaningful song..and..thats my prayer lors.yahs..cos..i dont wanna hold on to my life any longer..no matter how hard i try to get control of my life, i cant..so..yahs. esp my future..i just want everything to go my way..the guy i'll end up with, my job..yahs..talking about that guy..haix..trying to get him out of my life..cos it hurts..so much..but..like i mentioned before, Jesus has control over it..and..i'm not gonna bother about it.which means one thing.he wont get to find out that i like him.=) whats the point..cos i dont wanna make him fall..

well wells..going tampines with my bro n rong sheng..then go for prayer meeting..ta-ta..dont miss me! haha..love yall...




heys..haha..i dont know why i put haha also lahs..just..yah lors..hahas..anyways.so sad..today..cos supposed to go out with my brother and *edited*..(i learnt this editing thingy from chang xiang!) yeps.then happily took bus to j8..when i reached there, suddenly felt sick..then i was very quiet mahs..cos when i not feeling well i'm like that.then my bro sensed something wrong also..so he asked me why i so quiet..acting demure is it..(heys, i need not act demure! i AM demure! haha) yeas..so i told him i not feeling that well..then feel like vommitting..so i went to vomit..yeps.then she came..offered me water..so nice right.haha..my prospective sis-in-law. yahs..

anyways.so happy lahs.cos boughy my bro's christmas pressie liaos!!!! *screams* it's the thing he wants lahs..yeps..this cross necklace from Life bookshop..quite cool kaes..yeahs..

haha..lalala..then saw my bro's pw friend..she's so cute..she super hyper..then talk so fast..haha..really very cute..

yeps.then i took train to causeway point..i mean, the destination is..but halfway through, i felt really terrible..so i told my bro i wanted to go home..then he alighted at admiralty with me..i think he quite pek chek..cos like, he need to take care of me, but he wants to be with her..so i felt quite bad..almost cried..then my bro saw, so he was like, it's okies..ure my sis, so ure more important than her..then we went down the escalator..then i went to vomit again..i hate vommitting mans.then he flagged cab for me..and i went home while he went back to causeway point..first time i taking cab alone..haha..i got a phobia of taking cabs..dont know why..

yahs..anyways.let me talk about *him*..haha..someone reminded me that somewhere in my old entries, i wrote he's no. 5 in my life..come to think of it, he's not really worth being no.5 lors..is he? i mean..yahs..he's nice and all..haha..duh..if not why i attracted to him..but no.5 ..like too much for him..hahas..

oohhh!!! tell yall out there my plans for christmas!!!!!! hahas..friday, my family celebrating christmas..at ivana's place..yeps..so all the cousins plan liaos..we eat dinner, receive pressie then slack..then go down orchard to watch movie..then go for CCIS the countdown..yahs..then walk around..then go back her house talk talk talk..then sleep super super late..then next morning wake up chao late..then open pressie..then watch princess diaries 2..(though watched before, we all dont mind watching again! it's just too nice!!! *screams*) then bathe..then slowly take our time..then go down church for service..haha..not bad rights..haha..

yeas..kaes..nothing liaos.haha..yeps.take care all u out there..and i just want to tell u that JESUS LOVES YOU!!!! =) just like He loves me! i love u too!!! =)



heys..didnt blog yesterday..did i? cant rmb..and i havent gone to my blog..anyways.yahs..yesterday..whole day slacking..haha..then was talking to chang xiang online..then after that cos needa go off..so started msging..haha..then after that he was sick of typing..so we talked on phone..haha..quite crappy lahs.yahs..then after that i went to buy color lip gloss..haha..and some make-up thingy lahs.yahs..then bathed..dress up and all..then went for wedding dinner..one of my uncles got married..last night was the first time i saw him..haha..heys. not bad kaes..i was quite pretty last night..hahas..lots of people complimented me..even my brother..haha..then super funny..my dad pruposely wear same color shirt as my mum..haha..rubbish..as in, not really rubbish lahs.i didnt know he can be so 'romantic'..haha

then..yah lahs..nothing much liaos..today..gonna slack at home the whole day..so tired..haha..take care people!!! holidays are ending!!! make full use of them!! dont miss me!! yall will get to see me soon!!!

*cliquers* arent we supposed to meet up?? what happened??

testimony: one of my cousins..yahs..mum's side. he last time came to our church for a few times..then didnt hear from him anymore..then his life as super messed up.yeps.then last night saw him..he told me he's currently attending city harvest..serving in the ushering ministry..yeps..for around 3 months already..so i was like, praise God lors.and he's baptised in the Holy Spirit!! how cool! yahs..and before i reached the hotel i was praying that God will use me to show His love..and that through me people can see that Christians are different..and if there's a chance, God will use me to minister to people..so when i heard he's attending church, God told me to encourage him to ask his sis go church..so yahs.he said he did..and is trying..and my mum started sharing that God is so good and all..and asked my cousins to go church..yeps.so now i'm praying hard that Holy Spirit will continue to minister to them..

THANK YOU LORD..EVERYTHING IS JUST A MIRACLE..I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!



heys..wow..yesterday so tiring..went shopping then had to stand for 4 hours like that..for the parade..my legs were killing me..and my back too..

anyways..yahs.liking someone is so hard.did i ever mention it before? if i did, nvms..just let me say it again..liking someone is really hard..especially when u cant let him know..and u dont wanna let him know.

it's like, i wanna tell him..but i dont want.get what i mean? yeas.it really hurts..the feeling is so funny..like, when i see him smsing people, stupid thoughts like 'is he msging the girl he likes' just run through my mind..and i just feel an ache in my heart.but i have no right to.cos he's not mine.

always feel like smsing him, but i dont want him to get the idea that i like him..though i really do..i mean, once in a while i do msg him..i try not to lahs.cos..i dont wanna get too attached..cos i dont wanna be hurt.

i think i know who he likes though..but some say he doesnt like anyone..i dont know lahs.

God..why u put such hard feelings in me? why dont You take them away? i wanna stop thinking about him..and i really dont wanna do anything cos i dont wanna make him fall..i know he's gonna be a great leader for You..and he's really guarding his heart and life.i'm really impressed by that..i just pray that You'll continue to grant him strength..and use him mightily..and the problems he's facing in his life, You see them, Lord..i just pray that You dont remove the problems, but rather, help him through them..i love You Lord..and i just uphold all these requests into Your loving Hands..in Jesus's Name i pray, amen



heys..haha..sorry..havent been updating..anyways.yahs..talk about friday kaes..which is yesterday..yesterday..went shopping with mum..then came home..then went hougang mall with serene..then meet daryl reuben n caleb..then so rubbish lors.cos daryl said he was meeting a friend..yahs.but he never say who.so..yahs.we met in the library..then he suddenly say he stomach pain (same old trick.we fell for it anyways) then caleb help him carry his bag..then he run off..we figured out he was gonna meet his friend..then when he was on his way down, we saw alfred..haha..we put two n two together, then figured out he was meeting alfred..haha..lamo..

then the four of us walk walk..then suddenly he called..so then told him where we were, then we went giordano..i bought the pants i want!! so happy..haha

we went to look for gift for meryl..yeps.then caleb went off first..haha..cos it was like, 6.30..and he's the organiser..yahs..so ended up i shared cab with reuben daryl n alfred..stupid lors.it's like, 1 min drive..haha..

anyways.we ate, then played catching..quite fun..haha..then had gift exchange..i got a cute cushion..=)

today..haha..went for rangers..then very fun..but i dirtied my shoes..and my dad just washed it!!!!

after the christmas celebration, serene came my house..then we went down orchard to shop..yahs..then helped to give out the CCIS booklets..so happy..then saw alvin kang wei and alex..haha..they dyed hair..dont think alex dyed..but.yahs..then..watched our church's performances..it was FANTASTIC..yeas.and after the choir performed, me n serene gave roses to ivana edina joyce n rachel.hahas..then..yahs.now home..

anyways.i havent been talking about *that guy* alot..wells..think he knows i like him.but u know.hahas..i just pretend pretend lors.yeahs.

tmr going down orchard again..got rangers duty..stand for so long..but nvms.as long as glorify God.=)

Lord Jesus i just wanna even thank You for today..though many people just walked and passed by without watching the performances, i know Holy Spirit You're working in them..and i'm sure the seed is planted.i trust there'll be a great revival this season.use me Lord..i'm willing to be a vessel used by You..i love You Lord..and i just wanna even thank You for coming down to this earth to die on the cross for my sins..i love You so much..amen



heys..havent been blogging..yeas..cos i went for two continuous camps for the past 5 days..hahas..anyways.i wont type out every single thing that happen..just those i think is interesting ones..

friday..went to cmdr lilian's place for camp..yeps.super slack..then she help us make those glitter tatoo..very nice..like those butterfly kind..(sw, rmb? we were saying want to make) yeps.then lasted until today..not bad rights.

went cycling and bowling on saturday..so fun..hahas..yeps.then this guy from 2E4 working at the rent bike shop..yeps. then he saw me he was quite shocked.hahas..cant remember his name also..yahs..then we ate alot that day..all unhealthy food..all the cmdrs really very teng us..aww..then at night went church for briefing for rangers for CCIS..yeps.guess what we supposed to do.hahas..full uniform..aiyohs..hot arhs..some more must stand for straight 3 hours plus..really need to pray hard..but i think it's quite cool..cos we right in front of all the performers..so it's like, everyone will notice us..hahs..not bad not bad..

sunday..went church for 2nd service..so cool..all the girls sat together..yeps..but quite sad also..last day of camp..really enjoyed..yahs.but then got zone camp after youth service..yahs.
at night, went for zone camp lors..yahs..then so sad..go there..tired..then got terrible headache..some more got gastric..i dont know why also..then at first okies already..then committee made us go through this thing..like underground church like that..they blindfold us..then make us go through obstacles..with lots distractions around.yeps.but got different 'angels' to help u throughout the whole thing..then at first they make us wait at RK room first.then daryl shouted at us.IRRITATING! the moment talk abit only he start scolding..reuben very nice..haha.s..he throughout the whole thing very nice to me..haha..yahs..then when we came out, my gastric super horrible liaos..then i sit at the front porch..then i slept..cos really tired..yahs.then i slept..crouching..sitting lahs.yahs.then so scary..i wake up, i saw daryl jojo anthony and gab looking at me..thats pretty scary lahs.anyways.i got chased up to my room to sleep..jojo accompanied me..

monday..got zone idol and amazing race..haha..this one i got alot to talk about..dont even know where to start..kaes.start with zone idol..it's super lame..me n jojo came up with our specialty - praising ourselves..hahas..then the judges all no comments..haha..then stupid daryl..recorded the whole thing down.then me n jojo screamed all the way.n say wanna charge him for lion's court.haha..he tried bribing me..haha..by giving me 100 points for my group.but i didnt take up the offer.hahahaha..then went for amazing race..quite tiring..but fun..haha..cos it's like. i know how to go to the different places lors..so..yahs.then at night..got bbq..jojo n i ate with caleb they all..alamak..talking about this..cos caleb practising guitar..so jojo helping him.then i just sit there n sing for them..then jojo go take thing..so i with caleb alone.i mean, got other pple.but we not with them..sitting away from them.yahs.so we were talking n playing lahs.yahs..then i think daryl n joel think me n caleb sort of together lahs..cos..i saw them talking n lookin at us..then talk to each other through sms..wah piangs.. i was like, sianded lors..then anyways.after that we had our own lion's court..cos me n jojo really got lots of charges against daryl..he hurt my ankle some more! now got blue black! so pain! haha..but we only two girls..so got bullied..at first i quite irritated..cos i really tired..then they still keep disturbing me..even reuben not helping me..then i found out they will be sabotagin daryl later.haha.
anyways.at lion's court, i got summoned up.but daryl decided to drop all charges.hahas..then they summoned him up..so poor thing.hahas..they crack an egg on his head..then pour flour n water..then wipe charcoal on his face n neck..haha..quite amusing lahs.
at night..i went to bathe.haha.then joel n caleb came..so i went to bathe then they talked to jojo..when i came out, caleb gone..then joel pei wo..after like 3 min reuben came..so joel went to bathe..then reuben talked to me lors..then i was washing my face..hahas..he's the first guy to see me when i'm not so pretty that time.hahas..but nvms..he's my good buddy mahs..haha.then we talked till jojo came out..then we went to eat..yeas..then she need to prepare devotion so i pei her..then caleb pei me talk..then after a while uriah joined us...then we went upstairs to prepare..uriah went off..reuben joined us..then talk awhile, i went star gazing..then reuben went off..then caleb went off after a while..they very tired liaos.then.yahs.slept late.

today..woke up late.hahas..but in time for devotion..me n jojo got into zone idol finals.super lame lahs.hahas.anyways.gabriel is the zone idol!! so proud of him! haha..then during the sessions, God really spoke to me..yeps..this is personal lahs..i shared with a few pple liaos.yahs..

anyways.now i'm home.so tired..gonna sleep soon..nights! =)



heys..here to blog..yahs..duh..so tired..i woke up after receiving a msg..then cant get to sleep anymore..yah lors..anyways.later got rangers camp..but i havent pack..no mood...not excited at all..but..packing is easy lahs.less then 20 min can finish..so..can slowly wait..i'm a great big procrastinator..ask anyone.
anyways.daryl.thanks for trying to convince me that the camp is gonna be great..i'm convinced the camp will be great, but i doubt i will enjoy.
i realise what u mean eileen..liking someone is so hard..and torturing..yahs..why is it the God doesnt want to take away all these hard feelings inside of me?? Lord i really need Your strength right now..and please bless me with good health..i'm like, falling sick soon..thanks Lord..i love You



heys..i'm feeling better..yahs..actually i posted yesterday..but something wrong with my blog lahs.yeas..anyways..yahs..the missions team went off today..i really regretted not signing up for the trip..really..thats why for the whole of today, i was just putting up a brave front..i just HATE the devil..seriously..i know God wanted me to go sign up for the trip..but i just lacked courage..sometimes i just hate myself..why cant i be bolder? there are so many things i would like to do, but i just lack courage..besides, i got fooled by the devil into thinking i should go for the two camps to relax n enjoy..but i doubt i'm gonna enjoy myself..serious..i dont know why..so..what to do? just gotta pretend and show pple i'm enjoying..perhaps i'll really enjoy the rangers one..but zone camp..maybe..i dont know..i mean, yeas..the committee put in a lot of effort..but not sure if i'll enjoy..it's not the camp..it's myself..
i'm starting to miss my bro n ivana..two less people to care for me for 7 days..=( i really love my brother kaes..i told him i got a craving for pocky..and he really bought it for me..love him loads. anyways.yahs.good night.



am i suffering another spiritual attack Lord? i'm feeling so so down..i need Your strength Lord..so many things are happening around me..i want Your wisdom..i need it..You said ask and i will receive..so i'm asking now Lord..i want wisdom! i really really need it! You need to pull me through this! i dont like this feeling! i really dont! but no one understands how i feel..and i dont feel like telling anyone..Jesus..so right now, You're the only one who knows how i feel..i really feel like crying..but then again, whats the point? it's not gonna solve anything..why Lord? why have You put such things in my lfie? i'm not sure if i have the strength to go through all these..i really need You right now, Lord..i really do..i am really at a lost of what to do..teach me Lord..take away this terrible feeling..dont let this pull me down..please..i love You..



haha..paiseh..to those who have been coming to my blog..i havent been blogging for so long..too lazy lahs..i went for church camp from 28-1 dec..yahs...it was great!! alot of funny things happened lahs..yahs..i dont wanna type them all out..too lazy..haha..but it was really fantastic..my room number is 732..haha..shared room with jojo and serene..very fun..yahs..then my brother very nice to me..every night also make cup noodles for me..hahas..jealous? hahas...oh wells, he's MY brother..

the services were superb..yahs..really really powerful..no other words to describe it..and ps gideon is a really anointed man of God..yahs..managed to chat with him..and he's a really nice guy..

had lots of fun the past few days also..but cant really remember what really happened..hahas..can only remember vaguely..but dont wanna say also..haha..

anyways..God gave me two visions..i share them here lahs huh..the first one is a 'beware of dog' sign..so i was like, God what are You trying to tell me..then the picture of dog in the sign faded away..and then Jesus' Face appeared..a vague picture, but can still make out it's His Face..then God told me, if i wanna live a life for Him, the devil will come and disturb..and i really got a spiritual attack lahs.yahs.so He said i must remain firm and steadfast in Him , and the 'beware of Jesus' sign will be displayed in my life. then the devil will not dare to come..yahs..and with that sign, people will see Jesus is in me..yeps.

the second one..very funny one..cos ps weena was sharing yesterday..so suddenly God just told me to answer the altar call for the second item..but then ps weena havent even said anything about the second item..so it's like, i dont know whether it's from God..yahs..so i just kind of ignored it..then i was so taken aback when she said the second item.about trusting God with my future.handing the control back to God..and thats the area that God has been speaking to me for a super super long time.so i'm like, okies.God, i'll surrender this area to u.then while i was at the altar, He showed me this : i was driving a vehicle..then i kept getting into accidents..so i'm pretty tired of it..and i told God, "GOd You drive..i'm tired.." so i rested..and when God took over the steering wheel, the journey was so smooth, and He knew exactly where to go..so after a while, i felt more refreshed, so i snatched the wheel from God..then i kept getting into accidents again..so God told me, it's like my life.when i try to have control over my own life, i'll get into many many accidents and wrong turns..but when i let God take control, everything will be fine..so He told me to trust Him fully with my future..yahs..

thats all..yeps

then today, i went christmas shopping..and i'm totally broke now!!! i spent so much! hahas..and i bought a purse for myself too! i mean, come on..must pamper urself once in a while..hahas.

yups..cant wait for christmas..time passes so quickly..after xams, school reopens.then CNY..hahas..cant wait...

people..please go down to orchard during the christmas season..it's gonna be super fun..yahs..u'll really enjoy urself..trust me.=)

thats all...thanks for taking time to read..i love u! =)

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