Thursday, December 09, 2004
heys..i'm feeling better..yahs..actually i posted yesterday..but something wrong with my blog lahs.yeas..anyways..yahs..the missions team went off today..i really regretted not signing up for the trip..really..thats why for the whole of today, i was just putting up a brave front..i just HATE the devil..seriously..i know God wanted me to go sign up for the trip..but i just lacked courage..sometimes i just hate myself..why cant i be bolder? there are so many things i would like to do, but i just lack courage..besides, i got fooled by the devil into thinking i should go for the two camps to relax n enjoy..but i doubt i'm gonna enjoy myself..serious..i dont know why..so..what to do? just gotta pretend and show pple i'm enjoying..perhaps i'll really enjoy the rangers one..but zone camp..maybe..i dont know..i mean, yeas..the committee put in a lot of effort..but not sure if i'll enjoy..it's not the camp..it's myself..
i'm starting to miss my bro n ivana..two less people to care for me for 7 days..=( i really love my brother kaes..i told him i got a craving for pocky..and he really bought it for me..love him loads. anyways.yahs.good night.
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