Monday, December 20, 2004
heys..wow..yesterday so tiring..went shopping then had to stand for 4 hours like that..for the parade..my legs were killing me..and my back too..
anyways..yahs.liking someone is so hard.did i ever mention it before? if i did, nvms..just let me say it again..liking someone is really hard..especially when u cant let him know..and u dont wanna let him know.
it's like, i wanna tell him..but i dont want.get what i mean? yeas.it really hurts..the feeling is so funny..like, when i see him smsing people, stupid thoughts like 'is he msging the girl he likes' just run through my mind..and i just feel an ache in my heart.but i have no right to.cos he's not mine.
always feel like smsing him, but i dont want him to get the idea that i like him..though i really do..i mean, once in a while i do msg him..i try not to lahs.cos..i dont wanna get too attached..cos i dont wanna be hurt.
i think i know who he likes though..but some say he doesnt like anyone..i dont know lahs.
God..why u put such hard feelings in me? why dont You take them away? i wanna stop thinking about him..and i really dont wanna do anything cos i dont wanna make him fall..i know he's gonna be a great leader for You..and he's really guarding his heart and life.i'm really impressed by that..i just pray that You'll continue to grant him strength..and use him mightily..and the problems he's facing in his life, You see them, Lord..i just pray that You dont remove the problems, but rather, help him through them..i love You Lord..and i just uphold all these requests into Your loving Hands..in Jesus's Name i pray, amen
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