Tuesday, January 18, 2005
eileen...this is for u..yups..a whole post for u..
know something? i feel i'm drifting away from u..i dont want to..i know it's hard to constantly keep in contact since school has reopened..u have ur things to attend to, and i have mine..but..i want to make it a point to keep close to u still..so much has happened since i last saw u..and though the letter i wrote was long, it wasnt enough..i still have so much so much more to tell u..
i dont know how we became friends..but i'm really glad that God brought u into my life..u have really grown..initially when u went over to ur dad's church..u were so changed..there's no joy in u..u were upset..and honestly, i was to..i did cry over it..but i didnt want to let u know..cos u had enough burdens..but i'm so glad to see ure trusting Jesus again..
i understand how u feel..about him..u know..just allow God to take that feeling away..if u read the post before this, i mentioned about the vision..u know, God wants to give u greater things..that u cant ever imagine..u have to learn to let it go..it hurts..i know it hurts..it hurts tons..and no one can truly say they understand how u feel..but..i've been through it..and u know..God's love is sufficient for everything..i know ure scared to let go..u cant bear to..u dont want to..but dear..u have to learn to..it may sound harsh, but dont give urself anymore excuses..and ure not going through it alone! u know Jesus is with u..shirmaine is with u..and i am with u! i really want the old happy and jovial eileen back..really..i just miss ur laughter and smiles..
i also dont know why i'm suddenly writing this to u..but i really want u to know, that whatever happens, there's always dilys (besides Jesus)..ure so precious to me dear. and just continue to trust God..and i want u to share ur problems with me..whenever u need someone to talk to, just call me alright.dont keep stuff to urself..i'll be available 24/7..unless i'm doing my qt, i'll put away whatever i'm doing..i promise..ok?
and..u dont be too stressed out..u seem to have a hectic schedule..continue to draw strength from God..i love u..
Lord Jesus i just uphold eileen into ur loving Hands..Lord..u see all that she's going through..i dont understand why u make her go through such tough things..but Lord..u have a reason..we know u have..i just pray Lord u help her learn to let go Lord..it hurts..but Lord..we know ur grace is sufficient for everything..u can heal the hurt n pain Lord..i know u can..i just pray u do ur work in her..keep her safe closely to u..protect her from the evil one Lord..and i just pray u strengthen her Lord..as she lives each day of her life for u..help her to be a shining light for u..and help her to turn to u in whatever situation she's facing..because we know that whatever happens, there's a reason to sing ur praises..Lord i just pray u hold her so close to u Lord..and never let her stray away..continue to soften her heart towards u that she may hear ur voice..i pray that Lord u'll continue to minister to her in ur own special way..u are the Lord of her life, and we know u have great plans for her..i know u love her Lord..and just let ur love overflow in her life..thank You Lord..in Jesus' Name i pray, AMEN and AMEN!
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