Tuesday, January 25, 2005
haix..i didnt go school today..sick...
actually, i think it's God's plan that i fall sick..cos they confronted jean n wn today..i sure dont wanna be there..i wouldnt know how to act in a way that is glorifying to God..especially when anger is within me..
this is roughly what happened..
scenario taking place outside physics lab 2, at the mini study area.
jean and weenee were there..and the girls went up to them to ask if the two backstabbed them..obviously they said they did not..jy n pple made them swear, and they did..(bluffing right through their teeth) then jy took out the piece of paper..and they kept quiet..so far, thats all i know..
i am utterly disappointed in mr nsr. thats all i'm gonna say.
sometimes i really wonder: what is the true meaning of friendship?
what are true friends? do i really have true friends? do i have friends to count on when i need?
just ONE stupid incident and it totally makes me lose my trust in people.
is there anyone i can confide in?
is there really someone i can count on?
is there someone who is willing to just listen to me?
is there someone who will provide a shoulder for me to cry on?
is there someone whom i can really trust?
Lord..im sorry im feeling this way Lord..please..answer all my questions..i know You are the one whom i can totally trust and confide in..who's willing to listen to me, watch me cry cos my tears are so precious to You..but i need a human friend like this..i dont need the person to be physically there for me, but just to give me support..Lord..i admit im broken..and i acknowledge You are the Healer Lord..please..just grant me strength to continue with this..You told me i'm gonna meet many problems in my life. this is just the beginning...and if i cant even take this, i'm not gonna be able to face the rest..but i know Your grace is sufficient for me Lord..and help me see things in Your perspective..polish me into a shining gem for You..and i ask for Your forgiveness Lord..that i have been harbouring anger n hatred..Lord i pray u wash me once again Lord..with Your love..put in me a compassionate heart..help me learn to forgive Lord, those who have hurt me, and love them..You said if i dont forgive man of their trespasses, neither would u forgive me of my trespasses..and You said i must love my enemies..i dont wanna harden my heart against You Lord..i need to overcome these areas before i can become a vessel for You..Lord..please..i'm really desperate..i know i can do it with Your help, Your strength, Your LOVE..thank You Lord..i love You..
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