i'm back, yups. this is gonna be a long entry. gonna blog about the camp.

on the first day, we were all super excited. then on the way to kota tinggi, some slept, some played cards. we were so looking forward to the camp!
when we reached, we were kinda disappointed at the facilities. especially the toilets. some of us started complaining, but we tried to keep positive.
didn't do much on the first day. did cable crossing. i went first, since i've done it before. i was halfway through it when the thing felt so shaky. i thought it was me, since i'm afraid of heights, and my legs were probably shaking. then cai xia (my beloved, cute, pretty and sweet instructor) asked me to look over to my right. i did, and saw that kenneth chew (the camp commandant) was toing-ing on the cable.haha.then i screamed.and continued.
the rest of the group completed the thing fast too. love my group. the group consists of cailing, joanna, ruth, chrislynn, ziwei, cheryl, kelly, kia yong, vinnodh, hong wei, kenneth, zong da and me.
dinner wasn't that nice, but still ok. afterall, it's a camp.

second day. we went trekking. tiring and disappointing at first. cause we trekked all the way up (3 hours plus) to eat lunch. just one rock wall away from the submit. but instructor rudy didn't think all of us could overcome the rock wall, and so we didn't go up. it was hard to get down, but the guys in my class were super nice. love them all. some guys stood in front to pave the way. the rest positioned themselves between the girls. every two to three girls, there will be a guy. ivan was in front of me and behind joanna. i was surprised lors. he didn't seem so gentleman in school.haha.whenever joanna loses her balance or look like she's gonna fall, ivan will support her by holding her back. then whenever i'm slipping, he'd hold my hand and say 'careful'. but joanna, cailing and i was careful not to hold on to his hand for too long.after all, he does have a girlfriend.haha.zaki was very nice. he isnt even in our class and he helped us. jiayu is prone to falling, so zaki became her personal assistant.haha.terry and charles were hopping from front to back, making sure everyone was alright. our class was super united. really. i'm sure if mrs azlan saw the scene, she'd be touched. real unity doesn't need any forcing, it just comes naturally. we were on our own until we reached the river. cause we couldn't catch up w ith the classes in front. but none of us were injured. joanna's old injury affected her, but she was alright after that.

on the third day, we did this acid river thing. we gotta cross over to the other side by a rope. unity was shown too. and zong da has a real long body.haha.he's tall.then so funny.cause he fell into the 'river', and we were like, you're melting! haha. then he said, not so fast. 1.8 m to melt. then he jumped out. then we, 'whatever. tall lahs.' haha.
then there's this thing where we gotta get up to the log and crawl over to the other side. kia yong was nice. he rested one let 90 degrees on the chair, so the girls could get up. he's so skinny, but strong.haha.we need to sing different songs as each person crosses. and the ncc guys sang so many horny songs. laughed like mad.
we did rock wall too. and trust fall. haha. thank God the guys managed to hold me. i was quite afraid they couldn't take my weight, and that i'd fall. but they said i wasnt heavy at all.haha.
they didn't catch hold of vinnodh, but they tried. then the girls formed the canvas and we succeded. cheryl overcame her fear. she hit eugenia somewhere near the eye. but we didnt tell her. didn't want her to feel bad about it. eugenia is really nice.
then we did rafting. the raft didn't break!! haha. i was quite surprised the ncc guys didn't know how to tie a raft. so i tied, together with the BB guys. the rest of the class helped in cutting strings, tying tyres, holding the pipes while we tied and all. unity. =) we had to make three trips. we were last in the first trip, so we thought we'd lose. but we managed to make it first for the last two trips.and guess what? we WON! we screamed and hugged each other. that scene was totally touching.
we then went to the chalet. haha. it was our turn to stay at the chalet. shared room with eugenia, ziwei, cailing and joanna. we wanted to 'thong' the night, so our class went over to the guys room. then some left to play strip poker at other class's room. i didn't go. so the rest of us talked. zong da slept by the time. haha. there was another mattress at his feet there, so i rested there. i fell asleep though.haha. then i woke up, and was surprised to see that the guys returned.haha.then the girls said i looked blur and shocked, and was funny. then some left, and me and eugenia rested on the mattress, and fell asleep. till the next morning. haha. but nothing happened to us. we shared one mattress. then the guys slept on the beds. ivan, wai leong and zi ming one bed, charles and eugene one bed, and zong da one mattress. when we went down, the girls told us they tried to wake us up, but couldnt.haha.and the guys no space to sleep, so kiayong, kenneth, terry and alex went to my room with cai, joanna and ziwei.

the last day, we cleaned up. so gek lors. the NA girls. totally dirtied the place. argh. but we cleaned up.

love the camp. love caixia. love pei yun.

and. love MY CLASS.

3E2 rocks my socks!

unity. we overcame every obstacle. and we bonded. we're so close now. guys and girls alike. thanks for everything! and eugene is a great monitor. =)

miss the camp.

looking forward to the class gathering now. =)

haha.anyways. i just woke up. slept for 18 hours straight. haha.


i'm sick of fake and pretend friendships.
i'm sick of hypocrites.
i'm sick of fake promises.
i'm sick of people lying to me just to make me happy.

yahs.thought things will work out.seems like its not gonna be.

anyways.won't be blogging for a few days.around one two weeks.no time.
leaving for the camp soon.
hope everything's settled before i leave.
it's really troubling.

oh wells.it's all in God's Hands.

ta-ta


hey

didn't have to go school yesterday, but went for a press conference in Esplanade.

it was for the launch of the national inter-school blogging competition.

got interviewed.

name appeared in straits times and lian he zao bao.
picture appeared in Weekend Today.

not bad right, haha.

after the conference, we had a briefing.

jaime teo was the emcee.

saw aaron from Eye for a Guy.

and i saw hadley.haha.we were both surprised by each other's presence.

for the whole of today, i did nothing productive.

wanted to wake up as late as i can, as i haven't been getting enough rest due to exams.
i woke up at 8.30, which is quite early.tried to get back to sleep.didn't manage to, so i sat in the living room, watching tv.i went back to sleep at 11.30, woke up at 12.30.watched tv all the way until 3.30, slept, woke up at 5.30.

i watched Hilter Rise of Evil. love this quote: "the only thing necessary for evil to flourish is for good men to do nothing." - edmund burke

someone confided in certain matters with me last night. opened my eyes to the real world. i mean, i just experienced it as well. but i'm quite surprised to know such things happen to guys as well. shall not elaborate much as i promised the person not to reveal anything.

sometimes as christians, it's so hard to set a good example. i mean, we're supposed to love everyone. yea. and some people just think that since you're a Christian, you're supposed to tolerate whatever things i do to you. well, it's not really true, you know. we will love you. who are we not to love you when we are sinners too? it's by the grace of God that we can do so. we love you with His love. human love fails.but divine love never fail. however, we arent gonna tolerate sins. and, we're human beings too. there are times when we get really irritated. so. to everyone out there whom i may have offended, sorry. i'm still learning to love. i'm still under construction - God's working in me constantly. =)

well. holidays are gonna be here real soon.

just a reminder: bowenians, needa get work attachment


hey

i finished my exams.

heard that?

it's officially OVER!

bio is the easiest among all three sciences. but know what? amath is still the easiest.

wasnt really 'high' when the paper was collected. cause was worried about my higher chinese paper.

i wanted to cry when i got back my paper.but i saw my friends crying, so it's like. if i cry, then i can't ask them to not cry. so i didnt cry.

but i cried on my way to church. it was quite embarassing. but i didnt really care. couldnt take it. then i was walking to mac from mrt. started raining. so it's like, thank God. cause i meeting js.then didnt want her to see me cry.

but. oh well.

God has His reasons.

i'm gonna trust Him.

but i have reasons to be cheerful too.

=)

mr goh said i got A1 for emath.
exams are over.
i got invited to Chloe's full-month party.
i've got friends who love me.

oh.that reminds me.thanks, jean. that call right after my msg really touched my heart.love ya lots. and uriah, haha.thanks too.for being there for me.to listen to me complain about my marks.appreciated that.

haha.oh yahs.remember to watch the news, or look out for me and joanna in the news tomorrow.haha.cause, a few of us taking part in blogging competition, and we're having press conference tomorrow at esplanade :)
cool right?

needa go sleep. super tired from all these weeks of mugging.

nights.

love u people lots. especially those who are always there for me.
you're precious darlings from God.


hey.

was in a rush yesterday, thats why blogged such a short post.

anyways.haha.i havent finished.yesterday, went for phy lesson at math homeroom.
it's air-conditioned.and i was wearing my contacts.so after a while, my eyes felt quite dry.i then took out my eye-drop from a pouch in my bag.then i saw my small bottle of perfume inside.haha.so took it out.then i sprayed a small spritz.couldnt smell anything, so i srayed another time.haha.three seconds later, the whole class could smell it.then my teacher was like, who sprayed what? haha.then someone shouted it was yen hon.haha.then li hui, chrislynn and i started laughing.haha.the class actually believed it was eugene.haha.ended up some of them found out it was me.but i got my retribution kaes.haha.cause my finger kena the perfume.then i think my skin snesitive to it or something, then my thumb itched the whole time.even after i bathed.haha.scratched till my thumb was so red.

physics paper totally 'vacuumed'. (another word for vacuum is? yea.thats right.thats the word.i dont wanna use it.) but emath was okay.easier than paper one.cause mdm mah is the setter.but i still think amath is the easiest.

asked mr goh about my paper one results. his answer? "not very good lahs. but no very bad also." what kind of answer is that lahs.hahas.

hmm.pride really does cause alot of trouble.sometimes if u can just humble yourself, whether or not you are in the wrong, things can be so much easier to be solved.

and i realise i always want people to give in to me.sorry to everyone out there whom i have offended.

-ps: nothing big happened.just suddenly thought of it so i said that.i didnt get into any trouble.dont worry.

yeah! tomorrow's my last paper!!!!!! (though most people had their last paper today.it's ok.i'm numb to all the suanings.)

need to make a trip down to amkss to check my chinese paper.argh.dont feel like going.but i'm gonna try everything i can to get as much marks as i can.haha.to pull up my total score.my three sciences are gonna pull me down.so gotta depend on my lang, math and humans to pull them up.the sentence doesnt really make sense.haha.but.yahs.dont know how to phrase it in another way.

going for prayer meeting tomorrow.have been missing for two weeks.due to exams.

i'm mentally drained.i cant wait for tomorrow's paper to be over! my brain has a limited capacity!! dont blame me for being too absent-minded lately.how not to be when u've got to cram so much stuff inside a small brain like mine???

i can do it

i can do it

no!!!! i cant!!!!

but

GOD CAN. =)

and if u think u cant carry on, whatever situation u are in, GOD CAN. all it takes it's TRUST.

love you all out there. and i know u love me too. =) haha.


hey hey!

my dad is so cute. haha. i love him. i know i know. no one describes their dads as 'cute'..but. yahs.haha..

cause came out of math homeroom after phy. then saw that it was raining. (didnt bring umbrella AGAIN.haha.dont have the habit.) so actually wanted to just go home in the rain. but i'm already not feeling to well, s0 decided not to. wanted to stay around in school for a while. then decided to call my dad. then he came and fetch me.and treated me to mac.cause he said. so long never treat u already. haha.

amath is easier than emath. blog another time.needa go mug. love ya.


hey.

had amath paper today. couldnt stop smiling.

know why?

cause, it's the easiest amath paper i've ever done. muahahaha.
it's the first amath paper i completed, without being brain-fried. -claps-

although some marks are deducted, i'm pretty sure i'd pass the paper.

to think i woke up FOUR times last night just because i was nervous.

the first time i woke up, i dreamt about the amath paper.it was super hard, i cried.then i got scolded.haha.and i woke up.
the second time, i thought it was time for school, and i was late.woke up, checked time, 2+ in the morning.
the third, time, thought it was time for school too, woke up. time was 3+.
the fourth time, same thing happened, and time was 4+.

thats how nervous i was.

when they gave us the paper, i refused to flip to the back pages to see how hard the paper is. because i figured out that if the paper is hard, i'd probably lose the motivation to continue doing it.so i started doing the paper.i thought that since the first few questions were so simple, the questions at the back would probably be difficult. and i realised thats not the case! haha.was so happy, i took my time to check, made sure that wasnt any careless mistakes.

Anyways. I'm getting back my Chinese paper this Thursday. I'm super worried. But you know what? I'm gonna leave all my worries to God. Cause there's NOTHING my God cannot do.

surrendering everything to God really takes time.yea.but you know what? once you do it, you feel really great. it takes lots of tears too. but it's comforting. cause God says that every tear you cry, is precious in His eyes.

i literally felt a weight lifted off me. when i lifted up my hands, i felt something taken off my whole body. i felt so light, so free. really.

i'm gonna keep myself in focus. nothing else matters right now.

Give You Praise -- planetshakers

when i think of thing things
that You've done for me my Lord
how can i even start
to explain the way i feel
your love for me is so real
it takes away my deepest fear
now i know that i stand
with your power in my life

i need You by my side
i need You here with me
Lord you are my life
come and set me free

now that You are in my life
everything's completely changed
i know for sure that things will never be the same
now that i have found Your love
i'm drawing closer everyday
for everything you've done in me
i'm gonna give You praise

love this song. =)

anyways, kinda of nervous and excited.. cause will be leading prayer meeting. haha. 3 weeks later..quite scary lahs. but well. it's serving God. so there shouldnt be anthing scary about it right? but i think clash with JTC..so maybe needa tell cheryl that i cant lead for one of the weeks..

ahh..JTC..exciting..

i feel so free!!!!! not free in the sense nothing to do. but. FREE!!! yahs. cause i found freedom in God!!!

there's just a joy i can't explain. cause i have a God who's marvelous, wonderful, superb. just. great. beyond what words can describe.

like i said, nothing else matters to me right now. if it's God's will, He will make sure it happens. if not, whats the use of clinging on? it'll just be taken away.

needa go mug for bio. i can do it, with God's strength. =)

i love you. yes, you. the one reading this. you know who u are. =)

take lots of care. those who are getting back results, trust God alright. He knows whats best. and He saw the effort you put in. so. the best is in His Hands.


hey

know something? i love my cell. =)

throughout this whole week, i havent laughed at all. was super moody. though i may not have appeared so.
but.yahs.friday is always the happiest day of my week.haha.my cell group.just have a way to make me feel happy.the things they do, say etc.just love my cell group loads.

this is dedicated to my beloved cell :

paula: thanks for being such a wonderful cl!!! u never hesitate to show us your love.
joel: haha.thanks for being a great acl.u always bring laughter to the cell.
jean: ure a great great friend.thanks for confiding in me, and thanks for listening to me
chang xiang: ure a wonderful friend. thanks for bringing joy to the cell.
you rong: haha.ure so quiet.but ur silent laughter always makes us laugh. =)
qian xiang: though ure new to us, u managed to blend in well. hope to know u better =)

yea.i'm in a better mood than the past few days.but still under lots of stress.i also don't know why.i didn't pressurise myself on purpose.as in.yahs.u get my point.haha

anyways.i'm in a better mood partly because some stuff that has been bothering me for like few weeks have been resolved. sort of. hopefully it works out.

going palm grove later to study..

amath emath phy and bio..

i'll jiayou for these last four papers!!!!!


bad mood.kind of.

thanks to the killer paper set by the serial killer.

geog paper was quite okay. though i lost two marks. first question. too careless. asked to find bearing from the bottom area to the top. but i from top to bottom. argh. then i did on the wet rice cultivation one. almost didnt have time.but managed to scan through my answer script once before i handed in.

chem.that was the killer paper.stupid chem.i was killed on the spot.everyone was.and we thought sundram was sharing tips with us yesterday.fake tips lors.didnt help much.and didnt have time to complete the last question.

Argh.dont talk about it.irritated.

And my dad.he msged me at 11.40, telling me that he's fetching me home. Then he msged me at 11.55. I called him at 12.10, and he scolded me for not telling him earlier what time I ending. I was like, I just ended exam.my paper was from 1030 to 12, how to reply.then I just hung up and went home on my own. I know I shouldn't have done that, but I was in a bad mood cause of the paper.

Leading ice breaker later..but havent thought of what to play..

Haix. 4 more papers to go, and I’ll be free!!!!!

3e2..remember to bring ur passports on Monday..pass them to me..then I'll pass to mrs azlan. And..please remind me to circulate that list around. Yea. Cause the guys already finished up filling the list!! Haha. And we’re not even halfway there. (oops)


hi.

had quite a good day at first.cause cai and alex are ok now!!!!

whole day was still trying to cram as much stuff as i can into my head for ss.
then it was finally THE time.time for ss paper.
not really confident.cause seems like all the stuff i studied dropped from my head into my stomach, and churning together with all the butterflies inside.
prayed before i started writing.
wrote confidently.
handwriting was neat.
just started last question for SBQ when ms suan said, "those who havent started on your SEQ, please start now.watch your time."
that was when i started panicking.
looked up at the clock.
realised it's one pm.
wrote as fast as i could.
started on SEQ.(northern ireland catholic-protestant conflict)
wrote confidently for part a.
realised i'm left with around ten min for my part b.
panicked.
nothing came into my mind.
only bits and bits of info.
sentences came out weird and rushed.
no time to elaborate on certain stuff i want to.

argh.

u see why i'm upset now?

friendships.takes time to build them up.but isn't it like a natural thing? u just become friends, and then u work on it.kind of weird to work on being friends right.oh well.wait.i'm wrong.we were friends.but.kind of fell out.(i'm not naming anyone here.cause i dont want people to know what exactly happened, and who the person is.) so i guess right now is not so much of building up a new friendship, but salvaging the friendship.it takes two to tango.i know i must do my part.please do yours too.i'm quite tired of calling you a friend by name, and u calling me a friend by name.and still feeling bitter towards each other.guess it all boils down to forgiveness.and give and take.i'll try my best.alright? i'm sorry if anything i did affected u real bad or hurt u.forgive me alright.guess u know who u are.and i dont think anyone else will know who u are, so dont worry about it.


know something. i've gotten over it, and i'm not gonna blog about that anymore.=) friends are more important than anything. (: i love everyone out there who are called my friends .=)


guys are NOTHING but trouble.

insensitive.that's the word.being confused doesn't give you the right to hurt anyone alright.well, not all guys are like that though.i think it's normally guys my age who behave like that.

being angry doesnt mean you can just break a girl's heart like that.think before you make your decision.

looking at cl cry really broke my heart.though i know ay doesn't read my blog, just felt like blogging how i feel.

cai, remember that we are always there for u.focus on ur studies first alright? anything else, try to tolerate first. go ahead and cry all u want. u'll feel better after that.

i dont know if mal visits my blog (most prob not.), but this is for her:
mal.i dont know whether u did it knowingly or unknowingly.but u hurt cai with ur actions.in case u dont know, she and ay are together.and what u did strained their relationship.and u really hurt her.she's my good friend.and i love her.joanna loves her too.and many others.hurting her means hurting us too.any idea how many people u hurt?

whatever it is, cai, we love you.just remember that.God loves you too.

hmm.realised something.everyone appears to be strong and 'unbeatable' by things, but when something really happens, u see the fragile side of them.

that's when love and support from people around you come in. i dont totally understand how she felt, but i knew that some hugs and love would be really comforting. :)

gonna mug soon.total no life.mugging mugging and mugging.and i'm falling sick.cos i was in the rain yesterday.haha.got headache the whole day.but didnt say anything about it.how to bother about smth small like headache when smth drastic happened to ur friend.

anyways, we all smell smth fishy. saw ky and jy talking for a long time during eng lesson. and saw them passing notes twice.now, we all know what it means, dont we? haha. kidding. but it does arouse suspicions.

love kenneth's nick. i believe in angels. the kind that heaven sends. i'm surrounded by angels. the ones i call them friends.

it's ss paper tmr.everyone should be done with it by now, so. start on geog and chem!!! all the best for ur paper tmr.=) we can do it!!!!


i cant get him out of my mind.one thing for sure, i will never like someone else as much as i like him. (read on.i posted earlier on)


Avril Lavigne Lyrics: Under My Skin -> My Happy Ending
So much for my happy ending
oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead held up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

CHORUS
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the sh*t that you do
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

CHORUS
It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

CHORUS X 2

oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

am i going crazy? argh.super stressed.i took a nap just now.and when i woke up, i got frustrated and cried.mad lors.dont know whats the problem with me.

super super tired lors.these few days.keep studying non-stop.in school also, keep doing revisions.its study, study, study and nothing else.

i cant bring myself to stop thinking about it.but.at least i got my studies to distract me now.but the moment i got nothing to do, i'll just think about it lors.cant you get out of my mind.why do my thoughts revolve around you.its so hard for me to even look at you.cos i dont wanna fall deeper into the trap.

ps.i visited yw's blog and read the tag board.what IS happening?

-no life.mugging.stress.him.-


haha..no lyrics today.=)

hmm..super tired..have been studying too much.brain cells are dead..haha..

anyways.got some exam verses to share.brother gave one copy to me.then i retyped it..and photocopied..haha..for my church friends.=)

When you say:
“I’m so worried about this exam!”

God’s Word says:
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.”
Philippians 4:6,7

When you say:
“I can’t concentrate!”

God’s Word says:
“Thou will keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on Thee; because he trusts in Thee.”
Isaiah 26:3

When you say:
“I’m so distracted and tempted to do anything else but study!”

God’s Word says:
“No temptations has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, He will provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.”
1 Corinthians 10:13

When you say:
“I am so tired, I don’t think I can go on!”

God’s Word says:
“But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.”
Isaiah 40:31

When you say:
“This is impossible! I’m to far behind to catch up!”

God’s word says:
“Everything is possible for him who believes.”
Mark 9:23

When you say:
“I don’t understand what the question is all about!”

God’s Word says:
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight.”
Proverbs 3:5,6

When you say:
“I’m too nervous to think properly!”

God’s Word says:
“Peace I leave with you; My peace I give you. I do not give as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.”
John 14:27

When you say:
“I need wisdom!”

God’s Word says:
“If any of you lack wisdom, he should ask God who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him.”
James 1:5

When you say:
“I can’t sleep peacefully nowadays!”

God’s Word says:
“I lie down and sleep; I wake again, because the Lord sustains me.”
Psalm 3:5

yups.just to share with everyone else.=)

still trying to let go..=) its hard..but..trying.

love yall.


avril lavigne -- how does it feel

I’m not afraid of anything
I just need to know that I can breathe
I don’t need much of anything
But suddenly, suddenly I am small and the world is big
All around me is fast moving
Surrounded by so many things
Suddenly, suddenly

Chorus:
How does it feel
To be different from me?
Are we the same?
How does it feel
To be different from me?
Are we the same?
How does it feel?

I am young and I am free
But I get tired and I get weak
I get lost and I can’t sleep
suddenly, suddenly

Chorus

Would you comfort me?
Would you cry with me?
I am small and the world is big
But I am not afraid of anything

Chorus

How does it feel, how does it feel
You’re different from me, different


i'm going bonkers!!!! haha.hope not.but..yea.these few nights, cant get to sleep.dont know why.and keep losing appetite for dinner.and its just dinner, not other meals.haha.last night i couldnt sleep,though i was real tired.so i got up and started studying for ss.until around 2.

haha.i almost lost my pink water bottle twice.first time was on thursday.after english papers, we went hougang point.then when i came back school, i remembered i forgot about my water bottle.so i called jo to check whether i left it in mac.she said no.so i panicked.then i went back to the classroom where we took our exam.thank God it was there.haha..then in the afternoon, went to amkss to take chinese paper one.on my way home, i realised i left my water bottle underneath the table.so then yesterday i went, the first thing i did was to check whether my bottle was still around.it was not.so i quite upset.then sat down.then i looked at the stage, then saw my bottle on the table.haha.so wn n jy went with me to take back.ahh..so happy.haha.then i kept it in my bag in case i forget to take again.haha.

yesterday's chinese paper, still can make it lahs.but didnt know one zao ju and one/two words.but still ok lahs, overall.

next paper on thurs.ss..so much to study lors..going mad!!!! amath and emath, must look throug h the formulae, and practise more qns.bio, but memorise everything. phy, must practise more questions and memorise definitions. chem, must learn how to calculate the MOLE etc. (so confusing.) and memorise definitions. geog, must memorise also. my brain cells are dying.......

haha.my bro gave me a shock this morning(well, it is still morning.8.40.).cause i was sleeping.then i covered my blankie over my head.then he pulled it open and told me not to do that.if not i will die of suffocation unknowingly.haha.

haha.i didnt mention anything, but i havent gotten over it.no time to think about it for now.my brain is cramped enough.limited space.

haha.xide kor.shuan ni hai hui zuo ren.haha.i was just kidding lahs.u can give them the drawings first since they asked for it before me.=)

everyone out there!!! mug hard!! -those in army and no longer in sch, ignore this.haha.i'm so sorry, but got the urge to disturb u.haha.- referring to xide kor. love u all.=)


Avril Lavigne Lyrics: Under My Skin -> Fall to Pieces I looked away
Then I looked back at you
You try to say
The things that you can't undo
If I had my way
I'd never get over you
Today is the day
I pray that we make it through
Make it through the fall
Make it through it all

And I don't want to fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
'Cause I'm in love with you

You're the only one
I'd be with 'til the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again
Back under the stars
Back into your arms

And I don't want to fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
'Cause I'm in love with you

Wanna know who you are
Wanna know where to start
I wanna know what this means
Wanna know how you feel
Wanna know what is real
I wanna know everything
Everything

I don't want to fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it

And I don't want to fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
And I don't want to talk about it
'Cause I'm in love with you

I'm in love with you
'Cause I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you

gosh.just reached home.finished my chinese paper one.yea.ok lahs.had stuff to write about.but i dont know whether my format correct.i think it is.haha.hopefully.english.ok also lahs.but i not sure whether my compo, i wrote out of point.but i dont think so.hopefully.haha.

tmr.chinese paper two.argh.must learn how to write all those words.but.thank God.i not going school tmr.cause they having chinese exam.then i can stay at home to study for my chinese until its time to leave.

guess i'm pretty stressed.keep losing appetite.dont know why.

-blood is thicker than water- haha..only xide will understand this.haha

i'm not gonna think about it for now.gonna mug and mug.and i wont have time to think about it.=) but dont worry.i wont mug until i forget God.cause i wont.He's gonna be my pillar of strength.=)

haix.didnt go prayer meeting today.not going next week either.exams.

still thinking whether should i or should i not go for the koti tinggi trip.i'm gonna miss church if i go..oh wells.i've got three more weeks to decide.

everyone out there, jiayou!!! study hard!! and we can look forward to the camp! (though i myself still cant decide whether to go or not.haha) but most probably i will, on account of my friends.=)


The Reason
I'm not a perfect person
as many things I wish I didn't do
but I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you and
so I have to say before I go
that I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
to change who I used to be
a reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
it's something I must live with everyday
and all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
and be the one who catches all your tears
that's why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
change who I used to be
a reason to start over new
and the reason is you and the reason is you
and the reason is you and the reason is you

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
and so I have to say before I go
that I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
to change who I used to be
a reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
a side of me you didn't know
a reason for all that I do
and the reason is you

note: this is to the guys who 'debated' with me and jean just now.ya know smth? u will never be able to outtalk us on this topic.because God is on our side.i havent said my piece on the part u said that being a christian is so troublesome cause there are rules to follow. it's not about following rules.its because we love our God.and we want to please Him.it's not that hard.honestly.yeps.and i mean like.even if ure not a christian, u wont be going around killing people or what, will u? and.perhaps u guys are thinking, then why dont u use vulgarities and stuff? same answer.cause we know it's not pleasing to God.=) as simple as that.when u love someone, u want to please that person.it's the same case here.moreover, He's GOD.yea.any more cases to bring up? =)

someone told me liking a person isnt wrong.so i need not purposely forget a person.confused.then why is everyone asking me to forget that someone? even that someone. haha.sorry.just had to laugh.i realised my sentence is weird.but.yahs.u get my point lahs.haha.

ahh..this is so unfair!!! all my friends dont need to study for chinese cause their chinese paper doesnt have tian xie han zi, wan cheng ju zi and zao ju!!! but mine has!!! thats why i need to study for chinese!!! boo-hoo. but.i can do it kaes.haha.

gotta go mug.mid-year starts tomorrow.argh.

it's alright.i can do it.remember? cause i have God.=)


Artist: Richard Marx Lyrics
Song: Right Here Waiting
Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain
If I see you next to never
How can we say forever

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times
That I though would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' CrAzY

Wherever you go
Whatever you do I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you I

wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if I'm with you I'll take the chance

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' cRaZy

Wherever you go
Whatever you do I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

reuben.thanks.the msg u sent really encouraged me.

u know.people always say that liking someone is hard? i agree with that.but.forgetting someone is even harder.

anyways.i love my friends.totally.i was having this stiff shoulder thing.and i further stretched my muscles during pe.haha.and ruth and cai massaged for me.though i was sticky.thanks.u guys totally rock.=)

thanks for still reading my blog.though it's always the same old stuff.until i get over it, it will still be the same stuff.i'll try, alright? i promise.give me time.


Love, Me
Colin Raye
I read a note my Grandma wrote back in 1923
Grandpa kept it in his coat and he showed it once to me
He said "Boy, you might not understand but a long long time ago
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none but I loved your Grandma so
We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together
Get married in the first town we came to and live forever
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet instead
I found this letter and this is what it said"
(Chorus)
If you get there before I do don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darlin' wait and see
And between now and then till I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love, Me
I read those words just hours before my Grandma passed away
In the doorway of a church where me and Grandpa stopped to pray
I know I'd never seen him cry in all my fifteen years
But as he said these words to her his eyes filled up with tears
(Repeat Chorus)
And between now and then till I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love, Me


confused.

confused.

confused.

i always think that such things only happen in those drama series.never did i realise that it will happen in real life.in MY life.

well.

guess i havent seen the REAL world.like what js said.

hmm.what to do.

wait and see whats their motive.

i'm not gonna be involved anymore.

sick and tired of it.


hi everyone!!! =)

haha.love my brother loads.he bought me two princess diaries books yesterday..

anyways.gilmore girls is really addictive..and i mean really.haha..blog another time! love yall!


haha..hi people..i'm back..FINALLY..thats the word.

anyways.forget the previous entry yea.whats past.just let it be.

hmm.so much is happening in my life.and i ask God W-H-Y..and now i know why.cause He's preparing me for His calling for me.and i'm so glad He is.=) my God is so wonderful.

mid-year is coming..everyone, JIAYOU!!! just pull through these few weeks.and it's freedom!!! (wait."pull through these few weeks" sound like we're dying.anyways.u get my point.haha.)

haha.tell u one dumb thing i did in the morning.i was tying my hair.then pinned it up.the sides i mean.then i stretched my right shoulder muscle.haha.and it hurts!!! haha.

i'm at my aunt irene's place now..family gathering..

haha..so happy..my aunt bought me this levi's skirt.my gosh.its really short.ya know.the type jiayu will wear.haha.but.it's shorts inside.so it's not that bad.

really thank God for friends around me.those whom i can really count on.u know who u are.thanks LOADS.i've been going through some difficult stuff.and u guys are always there to listen to me.thanks.for all the prayers.hugs.

and.of course.thank God.cause He's MY God.haha.He carried me through it all.

ohh..ya know the Bible study week on book of Amos.wow.i'm amazed.by God.all the stuff mentioned in the bible, it came to past.it shows only ONE thing.MY God is a REAL God.He's the ONLY God.=)

i love God.no one can take His place in my heart.and.i'm not gonna be bothered by guys stuff anymore.=) cause i've got a great God, great parents, great brother, great cousins, and.great friends.

take care everyone.thanks for keeping my blog alive.haha.love you all.-hugs-

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