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Monday, May 16, 2005

hey.

had amath paper today. couldnt stop smiling.

know why?

cause, it's the easiest amath paper i've ever done. muahahaha.
it's the first amath paper i completed, without being brain-fried. -claps-

although some marks are deducted, i'm pretty sure i'd pass the paper.

to think i woke up FOUR times last night just because i was nervous.

the first time i woke up, i dreamt about the amath paper.it was super hard, i cried.then i got scolded.haha.and i woke up.
the second time, i thought it was time for school, and i was late.woke up, checked time, 2+ in the morning.
the third, time, thought it was time for school too, woke up. time was 3+.
the fourth time, same thing happened, and time was 4+.

thats how nervous i was.

when they gave us the paper, i refused to flip to the back pages to see how hard the paper is. because i figured out that if the paper is hard, i'd probably lose the motivation to continue doing it.so i started doing the paper.i thought that since the first few questions were so simple, the questions at the back would probably be difficult. and i realised thats not the case! haha.was so happy, i took my time to check, made sure that wasnt any careless mistakes.

Anyways. I'm getting back my Chinese paper this Thursday. I'm super worried. But you know what? I'm gonna leave all my worries to God. Cause there's NOTHING my God cannot do.

surrendering everything to God really takes time.yea.but you know what? once you do it, you feel really great. it takes lots of tears too. but it's comforting. cause God says that every tear you cry, is precious in His eyes.

i literally felt a weight lifted off me. when i lifted up my hands, i felt something taken off my whole body. i felt so light, so free. really.

i'm gonna keep myself in focus. nothing else matters right now.

Give You Praise -- planetshakers

when i think of thing things
that You've done for me my Lord
how can i even start
to explain the way i feel
your love for me is so real
it takes away my deepest fear
now i know that i stand
with your power in my life

i need You by my side
i need You here with me
Lord you are my life
come and set me free

now that You are in my life
everything's completely changed
i know for sure that things will never be the same
now that i have found Your love
i'm drawing closer everyday
for everything you've done in me
i'm gonna give You praise

love this song. =)

anyways, kinda of nervous and excited.. cause will be leading prayer meeting. haha. 3 weeks later..quite scary lahs. but well. it's serving God. so there shouldnt be anthing scary about it right? but i think clash with JTC..so maybe needa tell cheryl that i cant lead for one of the weeks..

ahh..JTC..exciting..

i feel so free!!!!! not free in the sense nothing to do. but. FREE!!! yahs. cause i found freedom in God!!!

there's just a joy i can't explain. cause i have a God who's marvelous, wonderful, superb. just. great. beyond what words can describe.

like i said, nothing else matters to me right now. if it's God's will, He will make sure it happens. if not, whats the use of clinging on? it'll just be taken away.

needa go mug for bio. i can do it, with God's strength. =)

i love you. yes, you. the one reading this. you know who u are. =)

take lots of care. those who are getting back results, trust God alright. He knows whats best. and He saw the effort you put in. so. the best is in His Hands.

4:07 PM