Thursday, May 12, 2005
hi.
had quite a good day at first.cause cai and alex are ok now!!!!
whole day was still trying to cram as much stuff as i can into my head for ss.
then it was finally THE time.time for ss paper.
not really confident.cause seems like all the stuff i studied dropped from my head into my stomach, and churning together with all the butterflies inside.
prayed before i started writing.
wrote confidently.
handwriting was neat.
just started last question for SBQ when ms suan said, "those who havent started on your SEQ, please start now.watch your time."
that was when i started panicking.
looked up at the clock.
realised it's one pm.
wrote as fast as i could.
started on SEQ.(northern ireland catholic-protestant conflict)
wrote confidently for part a.
realised i'm left with around ten min for my part b.
panicked.
nothing came into my mind.
only bits and bits of info.
sentences came out weird and rushed.
no time to elaborate on certain stuff i want to.
argh.
u see why i'm upset now?
friendships.takes time to build them up.but isn't it like a natural thing? u just become friends, and then u work on it.kind of weird to work on being friends right.oh well.wait.i'm wrong.we were friends.but.kind of fell out.(i'm not naming anyone here.cause i dont want people to know what exactly happened, and who the person is.) so i guess right now is not so much of building up a new friendship, but salvaging the friendship.it takes two to tango.i know i must do my part.please do yours too.i'm quite tired of calling you a friend by name, and u calling me a friend by name.and still feeling bitter towards each other.guess it all boils down to forgiveness.and give and take.i'll try my best.alright? i'm sorry if anything i did affected u real bad or hurt u.forgive me alright.guess u know who u are.and i dont think anyone else will know who u are, so dont worry about it.
5:16 PM
