Monday, July 04, 2005
hey!
hmm.yesterday's service was really great.yups.paula's vision spoke to me lahs.about her good friends standing in a row, and if she acknowledges Christ is her Lord, her friends will be shot dead.i started crying.cause i know that i really need to put Him first.and He is =) then i felt this burden for the youths.as in, i always ask God, why isnt our youth moving on together. why is there no freedom in praise and worship. i just wept lors.as in, i really want us to move on. thats why for prayer meeting, i asked them to pray for that. so then ps rachel said something like, the Bible says God doesnt want lukewarmness.if we keep playing church with Him, He's not gonna tolerate it, and He's gonna send wrath. i dont want that to happen to our youth! i just cried and cried for them. i dont know how to plead to ask God not to send wrath, so i cried. cause i learnt in CET that weeping before God is a form of praying.and He honours that.cause our tears are precious in His sight.so then God gave me assurance through eunice.i was surprised.cause she's singing on stage, then i was down there.so usually during worship time, people seldom have words for just one person.and it's like, eunice. i dont really talk to her.she was telling me, she's not sure if the word is for me, but she thinks so.she said, God sees how much i really want the youth to move on. then she gave an illustration, about this flock of birds flying as a group. the stronger ones in front, the weaker ones behind.there's the leader in front. and each time it flpas its wings, it gives strength to the birds behind to move on. and she said God wants me to know, i may feel like i'm the only one wanting the youth to move on, but there are a few others who feel the same. and God needs just that one person to rise up. then she prayed for me. i was so touched by what God spoke through her. then God showed me this vision. this man was carrying a lot of baggages.and he tried picking up a cross.but he cant.so God asked him to leave his baggages down, and he did. it was only then that he had strength to carry the cross. i didnt dare to share at first, cause it wasnt very relevant to what others had shared. but i went forward and shared the vision. then i realised it spoke to people lahs.i mean, God honours His word. then when ps weena preached, she used that vision as example. yups. she was talking about getting serious with God. leaving our baggages behind and move on. it's so amazing lahs, the way God move.see, during prayer meeting, we prayed for moving on. then service, getting serious with God and moving on. see how God links everything together thorugh different people at different time?
yesterday marks one of my first in life.first time leading prayer meeting.haha.thank God.everything went on smoothly.but there are areas i need to take note of though.
you.yes you.thanks for the encouragement. =) ure the first person. haha.
amath.ruins.my.life. mr neo lahs!!!!! so much homework! argh
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