Wednesday, July 13, 2005
time and time again i fall.i'm shattered again.does it ever bother u of how i feel?obviously not.life isnt easy, and it aint nice of u to come and ruin it even more.why cant u jus stick ya ass jus rite next to me and never leave.wad actually do u wan?u gave me love, joy, care and protection.now u're jus suddenly taking it all away.it's unfair.i'm falling again into a bottomless pit.never know when i'm going to land.i wish. i wish alot for u to open ya arms and pull me.save me. from da bottomless pit.but u stand rooted to da ground.smirking and grinning away.soon i'll see another gurl in your arms.and that's when da spears are gonna cum.pricking and piercing me rite at my heart as i continue falling.it's torturing. it's excruxiating.i hold on to da promise when u once told me u'll never leave.how naive. but i actually trusted u.i love u
hmmm.took it from gwen's blog.but this is how i feel. oh wells.
CERTIFIED: miss dilys jiang sihui has officially flopped her o level chinese oral examinations.she is currently in a state of shock.please keep her in your prayers.
haha.i was totally mad today. i couldnt stop myself from looking at that new item added in my wallet.haha.only chrislynn, jiayu, joanna, cailing and lihui know what it is.i wont let others know.this is totally embarassing.haha.perhaps will tell jean, serene,joel and reuben.thats all. no one else.haha.i was super paiseh when they took it out.haha
then during emath.i didnt know how to do one question. so asked ivan, cause gerald was talking to fifah.haha.he sounded super nice at first.then after he explained for the third time, and i still didnt understand, he suaned me. argh.
chinese oral was horrible. the passage was super easy. no difficult words. then first topic they gave me was, "what do you think of teenagers nowadays who do not care about the nation and world's happenings?" then i answered.then they asked "what do you think is the remedy for it?"
i kind of stammered. cause it's like, thoughts processing in my mind are in english. i gotta translate it into chinese before saying out! argh. then i answered.then they asked if i have anything else to add on, i said no.
second topic: describe the park near your house. i stammered too, cause it isnt really a park! then i was asked if the facilities are well utilised. i said yes blah blah. then they asked me to descibe my "dream park". i talked rubbish! so upset with myself! asked if i have anything else to add on, i said no. completed the whole oral in less than 5 minutes. fastest. record-breaking. well done.
oh wells.i will trust God. shouldnt worry about it since it's over. i shall worry about friday's listening compre. but not much worry. i've grasped the technique that mdm fu taught me when i was in p5.
suddenly miss primary school life. really care-free. you dont worry over crushes. and less workload.it's totally fun all day. haix. miss my friends and teachers. how i wish i'm back to those days. where everyone is so innocent and naive. things are so much simpler.
enough of ranting.
REMINDER TO ALL WHO LOVE DILYS: it's SIX days to her birthday! remember! dont break her heart by forgetting it! =)
i love u all. really. especially all those who have been by my side all the time.
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