Saturday, September 17, 2005
divorce is the worst thing that humans can come up with.
i'm not mentioning names.for privacy's sake.
when adults divorce, children are the ones who suffer.
thats what my parents always tell me.
and i find it really true.
when parents divorce,
most kids will think that they cant find love in family.
so they turn to the outside world (read: boys)
but i hope you won't.i really do hope u wont.
cause you do know your parents still love you.
even more than before.
besides, you know u still have us.we will always be there for u.
cause WE LOVE YOU.
and so does God.=)
u may feel all hurt and broken,
but God takes them all,
and gives u a new and whole heart.
He has a reason for all these.
a good reason, and not to harm you.
CAUSE HE LOVES YOU.MORE THAN ANYONE ELSE ON EARTH DOES.i dont know how much of these u are absorbing,
but as a dear friend,
thats what i really want u to know.
i love u.
now, this part is for my darling fairy.
(haha.my blog seems like a place i can write letters)
you know, i understand how hard it is for u to go through such stuff.
it's a different experience yes,
but the amount of hurts and pain is equivalent, if not more.
i realised something.
i became vulnerable the moment i let my mind run wild.
i start thinking about him, and i just go all weak.
thats when i start letting go of God.
it's not completely.
it's just, loosening the grip.
slowly,bit by bit, i let go of one finger, and another.
before i know it, i have let go of it completely.
but you know what?
our God is an awesome God.
HE NEVER LETS US GO.EVEN WHEN WE LET GO.and you.
you are weak and vulnerable right now.
cause you're thinking too much.
you are worrying too much.
what happened to the eileen full of faith, full of hope?
encouraging me to continue running the race,
standing by my side when i was down?
all these may sound harsh,
but you need a refreshing touch from God.
i've gotten out of it.
i cant say completely,
but i've learnt to let God take control.
either u give Him your ALL, or u dont.
God doesnt want a half-hearted servant.
He wants a FULL-HEARTED servant.
yes, He can still use you.
but you wont be in your best condition.
the Bible says to be your BEST in everything you do.
will you be your best?
will u let go of the things/person(s) dearest to you?
are u willing?
do u love God enough to do that?
cause He's still waiting.
waiting for u to commit and surrender EVERYTHING.
trust Him darling.
He has a super duper wondrous plan for u.
cause HE LOVES YOU.
so do i.
jiayou.
dont be deceived by the devil.
you can do it.
i know you can.
i love u.
my post is super long.
haha.
last night i didnt dare to walk into joel's house.
cause super dark.
so i ended up taking a cab in.
haha.
so dumb.
it's like, from my school take cab to sandilands road.
who does such a dumb thing?i know.you're shouting "dilys lors~"
haha.
our school ncc.haha.quite cool lahs.
when u see all of them in uniform.
it's like.wow.
haha.
ziwei, lihui and i was walking around school after amath extra lessons.
then we watched their parade rehearsal.
haha.so funny.
vinnodh was peeping at them.
then ivan's head tilted to one side.
then waileong only got one command.
shing rong looked so comical.
haha.
so funny.
then i was smsing ivan.haha.then i was laughing at him for his head.
haha.so funny lahs.
then he say he looked zai in uniform.
whatever lahs.
haha.
cell group was totally great.
we were all super crazy when playing games.
madness lahs.
super funny can.
haha.
then the worship and word, presence of God was so real.
as in, each week we go, we get new things from God.
yayness! there's rangers.
haha.
after that going heartland to look for eugenia.
she'll be the photographer of the day.
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