Friday, December 30, 2005
i'm currently slacking at work.
haha.
today is my last day of work.
school's starting =(
boo-hoo.
anyway,i've been reflecting on the things that have happened this year.
it's like.
whoa.
so so much have happened.
and i think i've grown.
i mean.seriously.
if i didnt grow stronger,
i'd have just died lah.
literally.
some things come and go.
some memories just stay and linger in my heart.
some people dropped seeds of love.
some people bombed my life.
joy,laughter,tears,heartaches.
some were with me through it all,
encouraging me.
some were the cause of it all,
suffocating me.
but you know what?
GOD CARRIED ME THROUGH IT ALL.
and to those who really cared,loved,prayed and cried with me,
I LOVE YOU ALL.
really.
there were times i felt so lonely, and had to talk to someone,
there are always people around.
really.it's like, i don't really talk to my school people.
but at the same time i dont really wanna bombard my darling church friends.
still,they never complained lah.
i'm like so touched at times.
and talking to yang just now really made me feel so appreciated.
he's such an encouraging guy.
and i realised something.
encouragements coming from a guy is different from those of a girl.
i mean,they are as precious to me.
but,it's just..different.
you know it's like.u dont have to like that guy.but still it's different lah.
and you know what?
i still can't believe that....
I'M SIXTEEN NEXT YEAR!!!
i'm growing old!!!
it's O levels!!!
AHHH!!!
i wanna go back to the days when i'm back in Hong Wen.
i miss my p6 class so so much.
i'm anti-16.
say me crazy.
but 16 sounds...OLD.
i mean,when you're 14, you're too young for certain stuff.
when you're 16,people will be like, you're matured and OLD enough.
when you're 15, people treat you as a kid,yet at the same time matured enough for certain responsibilities.
15 is the perfect age.
being 16 means u cant do certain stupid stuff anymore.
=(
and thats so NOT me.
haha.
this entry is so linkless.
anyway.
I'M ANTI-16.
and i really do pray things will be alright by next year.
1:42 PM
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
back from mission trip.
God is really so so good.
Good Samaritan Home started from something with ZERO.nothing.and now,God is blessing them so much, they are blessing people.
what really opened my eyes was visitation to the slum areas.
we didnt plan to go.it was a last-minute thing.
and i really thank God we went.
it's like, on the first day when i reached klang and saw the kids, i really felt compassion towards them.it's like,they are so cute, how come their parents abandon them??
but when i saw the orang asli kids and the kids from slum areas,i realised the GSH kids are really blessed.they lack nothing in their material needs (they're contented with what people blessed them). the kids in the slum areas,they lack so so much.some dont even have parents' love.so in comparison,GSH kids are so much more blessed.
and i really thanked God lor.it's like.my parents love me so much, i have a roof without holes over my head, i have food on the table everyday, i have clothes to wear.so much so much.
i realised how greedy i am.so hard to be contented.
and my sharing.it didnt really go the way i planned.
and while preparing in singapore,God told me that there's one particular boy who harbours hatred and anger in him.and that i'm supposed to ask for the person during my altar call.
halfway through sharing, i really didnt want to ask.but God's voice rang in my ear.JUST ASK.JUST ASK.JUST ASK.so i told God, "if it's You,just give me the courage to ask."
and i just asked.without myself knowing either.i kind of shocked myself.and know what? there was a response.just one.i was like.WHOA,God You ARE real.
encountered funny stuff too.
while we were having debrief one night.
ed,don and xy sat opposite me.
4 of us heard a sound.
like a rat running past and knocking into something.
i stared at ed.
then three of them turned towards the corner where the sound came from just in time to see a little black figure run past.
no one else except for 4 of us heard.
we assumed it was a rat.
but we felt pretty queasy.
ed was like,"if we think it's a rat,it'll just be a rat.if we think it's not,it'll be more than a rat."
but we just ignored it.
until last night.
i told my bro.
then he told me,"we saw the same thing last year."
i stun.messaged the other 3 immediately.
but really thank God.
cos if it really was a spirit,God protected us.
another time was when i was at the swing.
i felt something zoom past my head.
my hair stood on my arm.
i ran back into the house.
haha.
i miss the kids there.
esp samuel,rachel and benjamin.
ben isnt a kid though.he's 14.haha.
sam is only 1 plus.
rachel is 5.
anthony says i'm pretty!!
hahaha.
he's 14.
we had a lion's court on one of the night.
our own team.
super funny.
haha.
quite dumb also.
i bathed with jo all 6 days.haha.
in short,
it was a knee-slapping,foot-stomping,hee-haw good time.
and my heart is totally God's.
the one person who's so hard to be eliminated has been.
feelings just left,na-da.
nothing's left.=)
after so much has happened,i'm disgusted.
8:31 PM
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
i've got a wonderful testimony!!
you know, cos my 4th uncle (uncle ben) and wife (aunty sandra) went for church camp.
then they went because my cousins,kirk and cheryl, are going.
but know what?
God is good.
the rest of us have been praying that they'll accept Christ.
THEY DID!!!
edina jie!
they accepted Christ!!!!!
i really dont wanna go missions with stuff bothering me.
and that's why i refuse to go out today.
i'm gonna spend the whole day with God.
and submitting them all to Him.
Ps Adrian prayed for me last night.
and he said,
"you will be a blessing in people's lives."
thats a confirmation to two visions i saw for myself.
people just dont know how evil gossiping is.
it hurts the people involved.
and u're enjoying yourself at the expense of people.
how evil can that be?
whats more,when they are supposed to be matured Christians,
setting an example for people to follow.
is this the standard for our next generation?
3:27 PM
Saturday, December 10, 2005
my posts are gonna be short.
haha.
too tired and busy to blog.
i learnt a bit of guitar and keyboard!
not bad ok.
haha.
i learnt 4 types of strumming.
1. down down up up down up down down up (praise)
2. down up up down up up down up down (worship)
3. same as 2,but in praise form
4. down down down up up down down (praise)
i know that didnt make sense.haha.cos the rhythm's not there.
i learnt 4 chords.
i learnt how to play the main keys for Here I Am on keyboard.
not bad right!!
fast-learner.
i've decided to learn guitar.
cos hg2 needs a guitarist.
will find someone to coach me.
in the meantime,
it's edward and yang cheng.
ed promised to teach me on the way to klang,and in klang.=)
12:17 AM
Wednesday, December 07, 2005
AMEN!
church camp was great.
really fantastic.
and i really want to grow even more.
i dont wanna stop here.
it's NOT enough.
cos
MY GOD IS A BIG GOD!
so BIG,none can compare.
you know, to type out every single thing is impossible.
cos God was so real.
so much happened in such a short period of time.
GOD i stand in awe of u.
8:49 PM
Friday, December 02, 2005
i'm super duper excited!
but i've got so so much to do.
church camp teams totally changed.
my team consists of:
yang as leader,me as asst, caleb, zhiming, shuling, gabriel foo, jane, amy, eunice, claressa.
woo-hoo!!
today was really hectic.
supposed to wake up at 6.15, i woke up at 7.15
i was so scared i couldnt send joel off, i almost cried.
he kept calling.
but thank God i reached there in time.
went to airport to receive the indonesia team.
ate at popeye's.
went back church with reuben,daryl,joshua,jeremy.
met jojo halfway.
had church camp leaders meeting.
i tell you.
porsche made SO much noise,
we decided to leave the room for further discussion.
haha.
then jon called.
i think to get us go saturation.
we didnt tell him which room we were in.
we turned off the room lights,
then hid.
super funny.
me,jo,yang,don and jake.
super stupid lah.
then went bugis with jojo.
and now i'm home!
as in, was home pretty long ago.
haha.
i needa go do church camp stuff.
and missions stuff.
ahhh!!!
i'm sharing for service in msia!!
so scary!!
ok.
nights.
9:53 PM
