the misunderstanding is cleared up.
but i'd rather not find out the truth.
like people always say,the truth hurts.
oh wells.

anyway,i really am thankful for eileen.
she's the only one who will really listen
AND understand.
and i know she's a true friend,
so i'm never afraid to be myself in front of her.
even if it means crying over something.

hmmm.i dont know about 'him' and 'her'.
even though i'm hoping it's my own thinking,
it shouldnt really be my business now lah.
thats God's business.
right?
right!
haha.

yourong is so irritating man.
so smart.
haha.
73 for pure phy!!
and he boasted to me.
haha.i think he smsed me immediately after he got his results lah.
irritating pig man.
then we were crapping the whole day.
haha.he seems like such a changed person.
talk so much.

some pictures...

this is a picture of the Expedition Rangers from AJ and PG.bonded by love

me.joshua.haha.he's one of those few guys who'll pose for a picture like that with me.

haha.look at us.all of us are laughing.cos cmdr chong poh said something very funny.

nice right? haha.the theme for this year.

i know i wanna serve in Rangers.and i cant wait for AJTC (Advanced Junior Training Camp)

so what if it means i gotta miss synergiz,which will be held in church? [man! i really wanna go for synergiz now that i know it's held in church.cos i know pple from e2's going!! i wanna be a host to them!!] but i'd rather choose AJTC,which is what i've done.i miss Operation Falcons.=)

People from Royal Rangers is one big family.it's like,we may be from different outposts,but because we're in the same ministry and we have common beliefs,we just are able to accept one another and work together with one another.

i've never regretted choosing rangers as my ministry =)

today was the big day
ER march for enrolment service.
everything went well, praise God.
i made mistake,but thank God no one noticed.
i'm ROTY again.
haha.
thats all.
will upload pictures soon.


i'm reading all the testimonials written by different people over the past two years.
and i'm really very very touched.
it's bringing back old memories..

testimonials from my primary school friends.
oh my gosh.
it made me miss them ALL so so much.
it's like.we went through 6 years together.
esp p5p6.it's the transition period.
most of us start going through puberty,
become more matured.
so much lah.
the stupid immature things we did.
the tears we cried when teachers left.(sounds rather dumb.but.ya.)
esp the jittery feeling we all get when we have Mdm Fu's lessons.
but come to think of it,
she's the teacher i miss most in Hong Wen.
she's the one who instilled love for chinese in me.
sort of.
i remember in p3p4,i never once did my chinese assignments.
but she made me like chinese again in p5p6.

sec school.
i remember how i hated bowen when i got my results.
i 'quarrelled' with God.
"this is not the school i'm supposed to be in!"
i remember how everyone told me,
"dont worry.initial stages of sec one,you'll feel this way.but you'll come to realise that sec school is the funnest period of your life."
and i'd stubbornly argue,
"this isnt gonna happen to me.my life is different from yours!"
but see?
i'm enjoying my life in bowen.though not the studying part.
the friendships i've made.
so precious and so valuable.

well.but after these few teenage years,i've experienced so much.
yes,there are so many happy memories.
but there are also things that happened in my life,
that made me shed my tears.
while most friendships are intact,they arent what they used to be.
we have all found new friends.
and some friendships are gone just like that.
in school, mostly are still alright.
in church,i've lost a few friends.
two of them are guys.
one gone just like that,and i still havent figured out why.
the other,i'm not sure if it's called 'friendship'.
two are girls.
i shan't elaborate.

and looking back at all these years,
i see how much love,care and everything my parents and brother have put into my life.
they tolerated all my nonsense.
they were there for me to tell me how much they love me

but after reading all the testimonials,
i really feel loved.
the things they say,really make me see that 'hey,i've impacted their lives after all.'

which will lead me to another issue.haha.
GOD IS SO SO GREAT.
i was just writing in my blog last week that i wanna be great for Him.
and on sunday,altar call was just for that.
the whole of last week i felt so useless.
like i cant do anything to God.
even for prayer meeting,i wasnt expecting much.
but i challenged God.
"i WANT to see You moving.i dont care how You will do it,i WANT You to do a work within all of us."
and He did.
i tell you,i was just.amazed.
God just dropped words to us like nobody's business.
i was like,man! God you're so awesome!
and for service,i felt so recharged.
after i read the testimonials,i'm encouraged.
that 'Hey God! i can be different for You! and i will! i'm gonna impact pple's lives! cos YOU ARE GOD! i dont care what pple think of me.as long as i know i'm doing all these for You.'

well.even though there's still one small part of me wishing that God will grant me a little personal desire, i know that will have to wait.
after all,my singleness is for God to use to touch lives around me.
and,my singleness is for Him to grab all of my attention.
only God has the right too=)

You're just so amazing God.
and i stand speechless before You.
cos no words can ever describe my heartfelt thanks towards Your love for me.
but i just wanna tell You.
i love You.more than anyone,anything.

anyway.today has been a fun day.
eugenia, you led the parade really well.
no matter what pple say,dont be discouraged.
i think you did really well =)
during chem practical session,eugenia took a photo of me mixing the chemical.
will post it here after she sends it to me.
and i received a sms that really made my day.
cos last night i sent this encouraging sms to alfred, (i havent been exercising this gift recently.)
then at 9plus i received his reply.
it says,
"haha dilys you rock! haha"
YOURONG SAID I ROCK!!
I,DILYS,ROCK!!
and YOURONG SAID IT!!
haha.
so touched lah.
and it really brightened my day.
then jon yu and i was having this crappy conversation.
he said he can play canon-in-d on piano.
so i was like,'you're eligible to marry me!'
(cos few guys can play that.)
then he went,'yea.but i dont have enough money to do so at the moment.'
haha.
yea.
thats all for today.


now i know why God doesnt want us to be hypocrites.
cos hypocrites are so..
hypocritical.
i dont hate them.
i just..
feel upset about pple like that.
WELL..
God did warn me that such stuff will happen to me this year.
but why pple close to me?
i know You have Your reason,
and i'm not gonna question You.

but whatever it is.
i cried over it.
so.
i'm gonna get over it.
AND move on.
i'll focus on serving God alone.

dilys is alot stronger than you think.


eileen.
thanks.for being there for me ALL the time.
i'm in a rather confused stage myself, thats why i didnt really reply your smses.
about your eng.
hey girl, i know u can do better than that.
perhaps God wants you to know,that good results come from Him.not your own studying.
i dont know.
it's between u and God.
so am i seeing you on sunday? =)

el.
i understand how you feel right now.
like,all the hauntings and stuff like that.
sort of.
like,your brain's flooded.
haha.
i understand.
but dont be pulled down by this.
i know it's really tiring.
but once we recognise God's our source of strength,
we can overcome.
i'm learning it myself too =)

and get ruying to read this.
girl, sometimes you may feel like you're going rr and church for the sake of it.
so you'll think to yourself, "thats so hypocritical.i might as well dont go."
thats the wrong thinking.the devil WANTS you to think that way.
cos the moment you think that way,you stop attending rr and church,you deprive yourself of God's word,and relationship with God's pple.
rather,when u go for rr and church this week,whether or not you feel like it,go with an open mind.
i'm sure God will speak to you.
find time and talk to God.
how you feel, what kind of person you really wanna be for Him.
your troubles, your struggles.
tell Him.verbalise it.
just like you're talking to a friend.
cos He listens.
jiayou girl.
Christian walk is never easy.
but strength comes from Him alone.

i am determined.
i wanna live a life of difference.
i hate to be complacent.
i want more.
i wanna impact pple's lives.
i want God to use me.
so mightily.
i dont care.
God.
whatever You say,i'll obey.
but i wanna be a mighty warrior for You.
that's my only desire.
that,and i wanna stand righteous and blameless before You.
i cant.
but You can.
PLEASE GOD!

now..let me play with the image thing.
cos i just found out i can upload pictures.
wahaha.

this is my star idol cousin.haha.i didnt brag ok.







my granny and i.she's a baptised Christian! praise God!

lihui,eugenia and i.i know.we're beautiful =)

ooh.someone added me on friendster.but somehow i think it's not the real someone.

last night was playing this game on lynn's laptop.
some drum thing lah.
haha.
hey.i scored A for The Reason ok.
though i got an E for Dont Phunk With My Heart.
but still.
haha.
i've got a better sense of rhythm now.

my xiao gu passed me this 1GB SD card for my cam.
i can take pictures like nobody's business now.
WAHAHAHA.

ANYWAY.
i'm pissed.
at someone who lied at me.
i was 'friendstering'.
(a term of my own.means looking around friendster.)
and i came across someone's profile.
someone who lied about something SO stupid.
someone who claimed he/she doesnt have a friendster account when i asked he/she last year.
someone who said he/she refuse to use friendster because he/she hasnt met the minimum age requirement,and doesnt wanna lie about his/her age.
someone who has been a member since march 2004.
someone who's dumb enough to lie about this.
if you wanna know whether you're the person, it's simple.
just sign in to your account, and check on the right hand side.
under "people who have viewed me".
if u see my name,and you meet the above requirement,
ta-da! you're that someone.
i've never met someone so so ai dee ai oh tee ai see to lie about such stuff.
you are dee eu amm bee.
you dont happen to be that someone, do you?


as requested by my funnay friend, Reuben Khor.

wahahahaha.

Firstly, PRAISE GOD!
i REALLY expected a B for chinese.
not being modest or anything, but i really had a hunch that it's a B3/4.
so imagine my shock when i heard my results.
i wasnt nervous or anything when waiting for the results.
i didnt even feel like i was waiting for MY O level chinese results.
i mean,it's just CHINESE.haha.pple's results concern their future.
so i walked towards toilet outside the hall with eugenia.
then e5 atiqah wished me luck.
i thanked her,and continued walking.
three steps later i saw weenee.
she was,you know your results?
"no!! but i think it's a B!!!"
then she went,it's A1!!! we all got A1!!!
"WHAT?! HOW YOU KNOW? I THOUGHT I'LL GET B!!"
she smacked my head,
silly girl! why would you get B?!?! it's A!! A1!!
i screamed all the way to the toilet.
by then,eugenia's in the cubicle.
and i screamed the good news to her.
she was like,WAH!!! well done!! (sthg like that.haha)
called my dad immediately to tell him the good news.
GOD MADE THE A1 POSSIBLE!!!!

Secondly.
yea,i cut my hair.haha.everyone's been asking me why.
cos i was sick.like,rather sick.
and each time i'm sick,i have the tendency to cut my hair.
this time i cut it really short,cos i havent tried short hair since like.
primary....1? haha.
the last time i cut it so short was p1.yup.haha

what else??
hahaha.
OH!!!
it's half day on wednesday!!!
WAHAHAHA!!!!
cos bowen did pretty well for O levels.
hahaha..

p/s
it was because of you.
partly.


from cai's blog.

the irony of it all

the one whom you love the most turns out to be the one you hate the most.

the one who can stop you from crying turns out to be the one making you cry the hardest.

the one who feeds you turns out to be the one making you go hungry.

the one who brings you up to heavens with his love turns out to be the one smashing you to cold hard earth, shattering you.

the one that makes you believe there's such thing called true love, turns out to be the one convincing you that there is no such thing as love.

the one who used to understand you the most, turns out to be the one who doesnt understand you at all.

the one whom you feel you understand the most,turns out to be a complete stranger to you.

the one who assures you that with love, you can overcome any obstacles, turns out to be the one throwing hurdles at you.

the one who is supposed to be there for you when you are down, turns out to be the one who's causing you to be down.


haven't updated for pretty long.
haha.
too busy lah.
hmmm.
first time doing street evangelism in singapore today.
i'll try to go for every month's street e.
there are areas i really needa improve on.

step team flew off today.
starting to miss them.
i made it just in time to see them off.
haha.
thank God!

wonderful life.
cos i've a wonderful God.

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