Tuesday, February 21, 2006
memories..
i'm reading all the testimonials written by different people over the past two years.
and i'm really very very touched.
it's bringing back old memories..
testimonials from my primary school friends.
oh my gosh.
it made me miss them ALL so so much.
it's like.we went through 6 years together.
esp p5p6.it's the transition period.
most of us start going through puberty,
become more matured.
so much lah.
the stupid immature things we did.
the tears we cried when teachers left.(sounds rather dumb.but.ya.)
esp the jittery feeling we all get when we have Mdm Fu's lessons.
but come to think of it,
she's the teacher i miss most in Hong Wen.
she's the one who instilled love for chinese in me.
sort of.
i remember in p3p4,i never once did my chinese assignments.
but she made me like chinese again in p5p6.
sec school.
i remember how i hated bowen when i got my results.
i 'quarrelled' with God.
"this is not the school i'm supposed to be in!"
i remember how everyone told me,
"dont worry.initial stages of sec one,you'll feel this way.but you'll come to realise that sec school is the funnest period of your life."
and i'd stubbornly argue,
"this isnt gonna happen to me.my life is different from yours!"
but see?
i'm enjoying my life in bowen.though not the studying part.
the friendships i've made.
so precious and so valuable.
well.but after these few teenage years,i've experienced so much.
yes,there are so many happy memories.
but there are also things that happened in my life,
that made me shed my tears.
while most friendships are intact,they arent what they used to be.
we have all found new friends.
and some friendships are gone just like that.
in school, mostly are still alright.
in church,i've lost a few friends.
two of them are guys.
one gone just like that,and i still havent figured out why.
the other,i'm not sure if it's called 'friendship'.
two are girls.
i shan't elaborate.
and looking back at all these years,
i see how much love,care and everything my parents and brother have put into my life.
they tolerated all my nonsense.
they were there for me to tell me how much they love me
but after reading all the testimonials,
i really feel loved.
the things they say,really make me see that 'hey,i've impacted their lives after all.'
which will lead me to another issue.haha.
GOD IS SO SO GREAT.
i was just writing in my blog last week that i wanna be great for Him.
and on sunday,altar call was just for that.
the whole of last week i felt so useless.
like i cant do anything to God.
even for prayer meeting,i wasnt expecting much.
but i challenged God.
"i WANT to see You moving.i dont care how You will do it,i WANT You to do a work within all of us."
and He did.
i tell you,i was just.amazed.
God just dropped words to us like nobody's business.
i was like,man! God you're so awesome!
and for service,i felt so recharged.
after i read the testimonials,i'm encouraged.
that 'Hey God! i can be different for You! and i will! i'm gonna impact pple's lives! cos YOU ARE GOD! i dont care what pple think of me.as long as i know i'm doing all these for You.'
well.even though there's still one small part of me wishing that God will grant me a little personal desire, i know that will have to wait.
after all,my singleness is for God to use to touch lives around me.
and,my singleness is for Him to grab all of my attention.
only God has the right too=)
You're just so amazing God.
and i stand speechless before You.
cos no words can ever describe my heartfelt thanks towards Your love for me.
but i just wanna tell You.
i love You.more than anyone,anything.
anyway.today has been a fun day.
eugenia, you led the parade really well.
no matter what pple say,dont be discouraged.
i think you did really well =)
during chem practical session,eugenia took a photo of me mixing the chemical.
will post it here after she sends it to me.
and i received a sms that really made my day.
cos last night i sent this encouraging sms to alfred, (i havent been exercising this gift recently.)
then at 9plus i received his reply.
it says,
"haha dilys you rock! haha"
YOURONG SAID I ROCK!!
I,DILYS,ROCK!!
and YOURONG SAID IT!!
haha.
so touched lah.
and it really brightened my day.
then jon yu and i was having this crappy conversation.
he said he can play canon-in-d on piano.
so i was like,'you're eligible to marry me!'
(cos few guys can play that.)
then he went,'yea.but i dont have enough money to do so at the moment.'
haha.
yea.
thats all for today.
4:26 PM
