Tuesday, January 09, 2007
haha, i've gotten 2 sets of clothes for chinese new year already.
still have like 3 sets of new clothes at home with i havent worn.
i'll have one set for eve of chinese new year.haha.
bought this biege sleeveless dress with collar.
it has tiny black polka dots all over it.
very subtle, so even if dots are out of fashion, i can still wear it.
it has big buttons. haha.
and i bought a black belt to go along with it.
very demure-looking.
haha. cos the dress is like, knee-length.
then a red off-shoulder top plus black knee-length pants.
i like the shirt a lot.
haha.
so red.
gotta scout for another outfit for the 3rd day of new year (:
plus shoes. and a bag.
and i am so gonna do manicure for this new year. haha.
i want dark red nails.
hair? i'll decide when it's nearer to new year.
i know some of you are like, crazy. buy your new year's clothes so early.
haha. but i think it's super exciting to look forward to wearing those new clothes.
don't you think so?
haha.
it makes me feel more of the festive season.
and of course, the ang baos.
anyhow, i've got something to share.
i'm currently slacking cos i decided against going for first three months.
wanted to go zara for interview on friday, cos then i'd have something to occupy my time, plus there's income. [not like my parents have stopped giving me allowance, but more cash is always good when it comes to shopping.]
i talked to my dad on thursday night briefly about it, and he was quite alright with the idea of me working. [then again, maybe he said okay so i'd not disturb him from his sleep.]
i was so excited when i woke up friday morning.
but my dad told me he doesn't really like the idea of me working.
especially in sales, because the hours would be long.
i kind of argued, that he should let me have a try.
he reluctantly agreed.
i thought about what he said after he left for work.
the working hours are as follows:
full-shift: 10am - 10pm
morning shift: 10am - 6pm
afternoon shift: 2.30pm to 10pm
so then a battle began within
myself.
part of me realised that if i work, i'd definitely missed out a lot on church activities.
but the other part of me started reasoning things out, which isn't a good sign.
"well, you know if you work, you'll not be able to go for cell, rangers, and maybe even service.""i'll manage my time. see, if i kena full or morning shift on sundays, i can always go for 1st service, then rush down for work. if i get afternoon shift, i'll go for 2nd service. and if i get an off-day, i'll go for youth. what's wrong with that?""okay, whatever. then what about rangers? you'll definitely not be able to make time for it."" i can put rangers on hold. it's only for a short while.""YOU WANNA SKIP RANGERS?! are you mad or what? okay. then what about cell?""that can wait too..if i get morning shift on fridays, then i'll go.....""whatever. you're not in the right mind already."after praying about it, i decided that i wouldn't go for the interview.but if on sunday i'm still toying with that idea, i'd go on monday to just try it out.
i called my dad and told him my decision, and he seemed glad that i didn't go.
i prayed about it, and even though a part of me really wanted to go try it out, i didn't.
i want to honour my dad, and not make a decision that he's not happy with.
because if i really go working without his consent, i'm sure it would start building a wall between my dad and i.
that wouldn't be pleasing God either.
so after much prayers and consideration, i decided i'd not go try for the job.
because i believe that's not what God wants too.
on saturday, during rangers, somehow the Bible study and devotion seem so timely.
like, God's directing it at me.
it's all about making the right decisions.
and cmdr kwang liang was around, and felt led to share what God laid in his heart, after edina shared that day's devotion.
what cmdr kwang liang shared really truly spoke to me.
that whatever decisions we make, always place God first.
don't let studies or work overtake God.
especially when we start working next time, don't ever compromise our time spent with God because of work. eg, working on saturdays with there's rangers. or sunday when there's service.
right there and then, i decided i want to make a wise decision to please God.
and so, i did not, and will not go for the Zara interview (:
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