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Sunday, April 29, 2007

YOU ARE GOD. (:

this is my 360th post!
haha, random.

okay.
anyhow, church was fantastic today.

i met my best friend in the morning to study in macs.
oh man!
cherryl, you know you've been telling me about tommy?
he was in macs today!
but i only found out after he left.
cos i asked edward,
and he was like,
"tommy? he was here just now!"
haha.

yeah.
then went for prayer meeting.
God's presence was so real.
the wilderness thing that ps aaron shared really spoke to me.

he was sharing,
God brings us into wilderness at certain points of our lives.
but when He brings us out of it,
we have a total breakthrough.
so we have to persevere on,
and continue to be faithful doing our QT and attending services etc.

however,
there are some people who set their own wildnerness.
they stop reading the Bible etc,
and think that God brought them into the wilderness.
in the end, they die spiritually.

i am thankful i don't fall into the second category.

i really enjoy spending time with God each day.
but somehow,
i am not growing enough.
i want more.
where i am now,
i am totally not satisfied.
i want a total breakthrough.
a higher level with Him.
somewhere i've never been before.

God, bring me out of the wilderness.

yet at the same time,
i can feel i'm getting more sensitive to God.

during prayer meeting,
God showed me this vision:
a bird that was attempting to fly high up.
yet one of its wings was bandaged.
and there was a string around the bird, with a stone weighing it down.
at the same time, it was thirsty.
a closer look at what the stone meant,
God showed me a few words:
studies, relationships, the world, and FRIENDS' INFLUENCES.
God emphasised on that.

initially i wanted to speak up and share the vision.
but my spirit was holding me back.
i prayed about it,
and felt led to share with aaron after the meeting.

i did.
and guess what?
initially, i was kind of afraid it'd sound awkward.
i mean, how do you expect him to respond?
but he went,
"it's great, dilys! that's what i'm gonna share about in may."
i was super stunned.

see?
we serve a great and BIG God.
a God of beyond.

during service,
God spoke so much to me.
yup.
even during praise and worship.

it's such an honour to be able to stand in His presence.
i mean,
if Jesus didn't die on the cross,
we wouldn't be enjoying such a privilege!

thank You Jesus.
i know no matter how inadequate i may be,
You can still use me.

devil, you're such a stupid and lousy liar.
bleah.

and i will give my heart and soul,
to worship You alone.

7:48 PM